Jerk Face!

I just love it when my brothers call me lovely names!

It just makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside. 

Helps me to know that I am just doing my job in making them miserable!

If they did not call me rude names I would have to up my rudeness a few notches.

Ga.

:D I Loves Haruhi, Tamaki, Kaouru, Hikaru, Honey, Takashi, and Kyoya.

They are amazing.

I Greatly Dislike watching cartoons in Japansese! It is WAY annoying to have to read the words instead of watching and listening... isn't that the point?

I love it when my two favorite characters finally get together int he end! and when something horrible happens to them but it all works out!

Prince Charming

Well, I hope not!

Say it's not true!

I only pray that

It won't be you!

The tune is cool. 

I came up with that and a sort of story whilst I was gazing at prince charming.

Here comes the sun...

Everything is looking like it will be ok.

They let go. 

I have support.

I love God.

God loves me.

and... ( this really has nothing to do with anything but...) I LOVE STAR TREK!

What could go wrong?

Confliction

i want to just move on. 

i should just move on.

They want me to stay.

They are stuck in the past.

I am different now.

I need space.

I can't do this.

They broke promises. 

but that is not why I am upset.

I don't know why I am upset, just that I am.

I am trying to forgive and forget.

but it is hard when I don't know why.

But they don't understand. 

i feel guilty. 

i didn't even do anything wrong!

Why can't everything just be the was it is supposed to be!

i want to move on with my life and get started.

i am stuck here in high school not doing anything and I shouldn't be in high school anymore.

There is no point!

I have no friends.

well ... no close friends.

I have friends from school and people I talk to at school. But no one who I can just hang out with talk to , cry with, converse with, play with, walk with. 

I need someone who can be my best friend when no one else is there.

Why can't I find him?

why is he hiding?

I feel like I am in a "Find Waldo" book. except I am trying to "Find Lance" in the millions of other men who all look like a future Lance. But I can't find the stinking right one!

Emily and I are going to go man watching. :D I am way excited. we just have to find a day when we can do it. I was hoping for sometime this week, but it might turn out to be next week. 

On a brighter note. I read to my brothers out of the New Era. :D I love that magazine! It makes me feel so loved. I know that I am not the only one out there who is lonely. There are others who feel the same way as I do.

My scriptures are amazing. as is the Value Virtue. If you have not done it, DO IT! Get a packet from your young women's leader and DO IT! It is amazing and I have only doen two experiences! 

My mother is amazing. She supports me in the crazy things I do. She loves me. She will talk with me for hours upon hours until we both fall asleep from exhaustion. She will repremand me when I need it, but not to hard. just hard enough to make me want to change. 

My brothers are amazing. I wish everyone had brothers like I do. There is nothing better than a walk with them when they are happy.

Time to do what is Right.

It is difficult to know what is right. 

We talked about this is sunday school.

I don't know what to do right now.

I like my hair.... it is a little orange but you know... that is ok. I still like it. and it kind of goes with the rest of my hair.

I think 

flowers are blue

bluebells

clouds are puffy

cumulus

Grass is soft

spring

Stupid. what happens when you really don't want to talk to someone but you feel obligated to? what happens when the only time some one talks to you is to ask a direct question or when they can't see your face?

DANG IT! why is it so hard to forgive? why is it so hard to stop being angry? why is it so hard to do what is right sometimes?

I wish I woudl just do what is right and not even worry about naything else!

GA!

I need to read my scriptures.....