SCUM

I love when I get my homework done. It feels so amazing.
It is much easier to do my homework when I actually have fun doing it, such as when it is art!
Now I have the rest of the day to do what ever I want. But I still have things I should do, like chores, piano, vacuum my room, maybe even eat the rest of my birthday cake....mmmmmmmm.
Well, nothing new to report. Just cousins coming over. I love cousins. And their friends.
And I love Scum! Such a fun game! Here's how to play!
Just enjoy. Ok? enjoy

A Lush, Green Mind

"The consequences of industrialization and growth."
In I am Number Four he talks about how his planet was once struggling like earth is now.
My mother keeps telling me I am at a turning point, I am trying to make it through as the blast doors are closing around me.
The world is at a turning point.

Christ will come and the earth will be born again.

I can be born again each time I try again, each Sunday when I take the sacrament.
I can work harder at my studies, work to become better in the aspects of my life where I am lacking.
Change is never easy, never.
Why can't it be easier?
Because we have set patterns that we like, that we stick to, and in order to break those patterns... we have to do something we are uncomfortable. Something I have never done before.
It is scary to change. It is scary to do something new
But it is also exciting.
What is it about doing something new, the first day of school, Christmas, starting a new job, going to a new place, that is so exhilarating?
Maybe it is the notion that I am doing something new, I am starting fresh, I am starting clean.
I can do better here than I have done before.
and I can.

My Life is a Gift

Trying to start studying is the hardest part of actually studying.
I have to put everything aside, and work on just the thing I need to, even though BOOK I really would rather PHONE!do other things like FACEBOOK take a nap or even BLOG do the dishes.
There are so many things I would rather be doing other than homework, but when I actually buckle down and do it I feel so much better about myself. Maybe I should just take baby steps, and start with typing my notes and then maybe I will get somewhere after that!
Well since I am already procrastinating.... I was thinking the other day. ("a dangerous past-time!" "I know!" - Beauty and the Beast)
Any man I meet, could become the one. That boy at dance class could be the one I spend eternity with ( I don't think so, but hey you never know!) Or maybe that one kid that I saw at work once. God only knows.
That is why I have decided, unless I think I could marry someone, I do not want to be in a more than friends relationship at all. Dates are fine, and mostly for fun and getting to know people better anyway, but to have a boyfriend is a rather large commitment and I do not want to break anyone's heart if I don't have to. (Though my mom does often tell me that boys can't help but fall in love with me.... :)

Sometimes it feels like life and love is all a big game of chance, and if I end up with the one I should will only happen if I get all 6's.
But I know it is not.
"My life is a gift,
My Life has a plan,
My life has a purpose
in Heaven it began.
My choice was to come
To this lovely home on earth
And seek for God's light
To Direct me from Birth.

I will follow God's plan for me
Holding fast to his words and his love.
I will work
and I will pray
I will always walk in his way
And I will be happy on earth
And in my home above."

LDS Children's Songbook pg 164

It's Spring

...
This is how I feel
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I Love Dancing!

do you understand now?
I am a bit, happy, excited, confused, freaking out, and a little bit hyper.
I have not felt this way in a looooooooong time!
I forgot how good it feels. Makes me want to dance the down street! But then I take one step outside the door and the cold wind pushes me back in.
Maybe I will just dance in the kitchen instead!

Of Safety and Such

Piccaso face for Art class

I just can't get enough of how well this picture turned out! I really love it quite a lot!
Well today my room is clean. Beautiful and clean. I love it! I cleaned my sheets, did my homework, watched the first half of My Fair Lady, got bored, turned it off. Clay came over, nearly died because my brothers were smoothering him. Finished my homework, did some dishes, now I am ready to watch People Will Talk with Cary Grant.
I have seen it once before, and it is nearly as good, if not as good, as the Happiest Millionaire.
Old movies are the best.
They don't have and of the nasty things today's movies do. I feel very safe when I watch a black and white movie.
I also feel safe when I am warm, when I am in my bed, when I get a hug from my mom after a long day. There is nothing like being safe.
And when you are safe, then you are able to progress up the triangle.
I have been using this triangle quite a bit in my child guidance class. And It makes a lot of sense to me as well.
Child Guidance (though I hate going, simply because I would like be asleep) is my favorite class. I love learning about how to keep yourself moving, how to help myself be better so that I can help my children and my students some day.