Don't Really Do That

This is what I did in my ElEd 1010 class. Sorry it is a little skewed, my paper would not hold still. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bored! I hate watching TV I HATE sitting there doing nothing, and I don't know what to do! GAG ME! jk don't really do that.

There are many paths to tread

I just finished my very first math assignmet of college.

You know it has been nearly... 3 years since I actually finished a math assignment. And you know what?

It actually feels pretty good... weird I know but still, I like the feeling of finishing something hard. I know my math is not that hard to you guys, but to me, it is not like pull your hair our hard, but I actually had to think.

Last night I had my ElEd 1010 class. oh man. I need to find something to make that class more interesting. I drew a picture of myself on there... I will post it on here later, as I don't have it with me right now. But the picture actually kind of looks like me! I also drew pretties around the letters P.E. and drew some designs on the sides of my paper... I was a little bored. I don't want to be bored now!

I need to start dancing, I need to dance alot. I think I will do that on tuesday. If I don't, I will SUCK at the auditions. I know not a pretty word, but I will. So I need to practice.

Well I am done procastinating my SUPER long chapter that I need to read.

College Life

I never thought I would be one of the college students who stayed up late everynight....

So far I am not living up to my expectaitions. I have not gone to bed before 11 once... well I did once 10:30.

But it has been so much fun!

Actual classes start tomorrow and I am so excited to have things to do! I just hope that I can have enough time to do everything else!

Oh and I think I have an institute class tomorrow that I need to get up early for... Maybe I should check that!

Soren, when does school start and are you so excited?!

There is a family day, for the ward, and I think for the university also but it is when your family comes up and gets to meet your bishop and such. And the weekend after next is labor day... I could come back then but I have not decided if I want to or not, and I would need to find a ride, or have my parents come and get me... and then I would have to bring my billow and blanket and such because there is not on my bed right now.

I am so tired, I should go take a quick nap! That seems like a marvelous idea!

Mal

So I made up a character, her name is Mal. As in Malicious. Mal, the latin word for Wrongful, because what the humans did in pushing creatures from the earth was wrong. She is from this planet, but parts unknown in the deapths of the sea, below the scanners, below the radar, below the crushing depth of millions of tons of water pounding on the rocks. A place where things have sought refuge and tranquility. Dragons, Unicorns, magicans, Mermaids. All have found peace below the world.

Mal was born of a mermaid and magician, having no fin, but covered in scales. Slim transparent gills cover the sides of her neck, allowing her to transform water to oxygen,and visa versa, and breath beneath the water. Being part magic, she has magical properties. Attracting strange things subconsiously, walking on air, and the ability to learn new skills with disturbing speed and accuracy.
Her comrad in arms is a dragon named Slash, for the scar that runs from the left side of his underbelly to his right wing, and for his razer like claws that can cut through solid metal in a matter of seconds.

Not having time for games, Mal speaks her mind, exactly what she wants to say. Matter of Fact. No fiction involved. She can lie, and often does, but only to protect her world and herself. The truth is a tool, a sacred responsiblity given to her to use to protect and destroy.

Using her gifts, she has been assigned as gatekeeper of the relm. Protecting it from the sunwalkers, preventing all from knowledge of it's presence. Day and night she stands sentinal, never leaving her post.

That is the character I made up to go with Soren's Fade. Soren I have an AMAZING idea as to how they could meet and such and why they are together and we should have this not be an x-men thing but just our own thing!

I'll Lengthen my Stride

Well I rode the bus today and went to wal-mart with Darby today. It was great. WE got some yummy ice cream.

I registered for my institute classes. And I am really excited for classes to startnext week.

I got all of my books today. only bad this is my math book comes with 2 cd's and Alfonzo Richard does not have a cd drive. :'(

Want to hear an AMAZING poem that I have had on my coark board for a while?

While others may tire

or quit in despair,

Or feel as if failure

is to hard to bear--

I will keep going,

Put failures aside,

If I can't keep up

Then I'll lengthen my stride.

I've made up my mind,

Set my sight on a quest,

Though many have tried,

Few gave it thier best.

Trying my hardest

Is what makes me great,

Desire and determination,

Not fortune and fate.

-Judy Beck

Is that not amazing?

Home Sweet Home

Well I am moved in now. My family is gone. I am here with my roommate. Sounds good! All of my stuff is put away... except for my bathroom stuff. It is all on a shelf that is way WAY messy!

I am exhauseted. It is hard work moving! Now I just have to remember where I put everything!!!!

Soren I hung your picture today. It looks amazing! For a while I thought Iw ould not have enough space for everything, but I do. Barely. I have 33 pairs of shoes. numerous pants and lots of options to go with them! And I was thinking I had nothing to wear! I have alot to wear. My closet is squished! but I still have room for 4 more shoes!

I went shopping with my mom for food. And I snapped at her a few times to many. try one. I felt bad for it.

anyway, Darby and I are both just sitting here on our compys enjoying the silence.

Sometimes people leave out the important stuff

"Heart don't fail me now, Courage don't desert me, Don't turn back now that we're here! People always say, Life is full of choices, No one ever mentions Fear. And how the world can seems so vast! On a Journey..."

Byron just asked me if I was ready for going away to college. I am leaving tomorrow. I told him "I will be ready next week."

My nana says it will be better when I know what to expect. Probablly. But right now I am FREAKED!

And this little piggy left home

Tomorrow.

One Day.

End.

Death.

Never the same.

Hard.

Change

~

Beginning.

Change.

New.

Fun.

Exciting.

Adventure.

Friends.

Life.

Start.

"Due time."

Joy.

Tomorrow I leave for College. In one Day I leave for college. Tomorrow is the end of the life I know. Tomorrow is the death of the life I have now. Never again will my life be the same. Tomorrow my life become harder than ever. Tomorrow I have to change.

~

Tomorrow is the beginning of the rest of my life. Tomorrow I enter a change for the better. Tomorrow I start something new. Tomorrow I will have fun. Tomorrow Will be exciting. Tomorrow is new adventure, just waiting for me to step ont he path so it can whisk me away. Tomorrow I meet new friends. Tomorrow I enter the rest of my life. Tomorrow I start the next step to exaltation. Tomorrow "Due Time" is closer. Tomorrow will be full of Joy.

The goods and the bads all lined up for me to see. The goods are longer than the bads. That is a sign.

Tomorrow I leave for school. my family is coming up with me. On sunday I was scared out of my mind. I still am. But now I am more excited than scared. I am sure I will be scared the first few nights. But that is why I am bringing my Banket, Brownie, and my Father in Heaven. With them I am always safe.

Now I am packing. Kind of a daunting task. I can't imagine what is like to move a whole house. Just my bedroom(without taking everything) is hard!

Soren, Thanks. You are amazing! Remember every friday night, we call! The time may vary but still!

Anyone else that reads, good luck with your lives!

Eclipse aka Natalie Astral

Natalie stood with her arms outstretched. Soaking in the sunlight. she could feel each breeze disrupt the light, hear each blade of grass blocking the waves of light. She let the light flow into her, and felt herself change into what she held most dear, the sunlight.

Something moved the light. A car. 3 people stepped out of it. She opened her eyes and the connection broke, she became flesh and blood once again.

She smiled as she turned around. "Hello, what are you doing here?"

"Natalie, my name is Professor Charles Xavier." Said the bald man in a wheelchair.

"Hello Professor Xavier, how do you know my name?" Natalie already knew all about them, the light had told her. The one in the glasses was Scott Summers, sometimes Cyclops. He had optic blasts that came from his eyes and he could not control it. The girl with red hair was named Jean Grey, she had telekinesis and telepathy. Professor Xavier was a very strong telepath who took it upon himself to teach mutants how to use their powers.

"I, like you, have special abilitys. I can read minds." He sat back in his chair, his fingers laced together.

"Yes, I already knew that, but I was under the impression that you did not enter someone's head unless you had permission."

"Oh, well when I scan for new mutants it brings up a name along with a picture of the person using a power, so I did not really enter your head to get your name."

Natalie tilted her head slightly, indicating it was alright.

"Anyway, Natalie, I would like to invite you to come to my school and learn how to more fully use your power. Unfortunatly, Cerebro does not let me know your power, if you could be so kind as to tell me what it is."

She smiled again. "Professor, I do not need training for my power. I have mastered it. But it does not belong to me, I belong to it, remember that. I would like to come and stay in your school, thank you for inviting me. As for my power. Light."

"Light?" He asked clearly confused.

"Yes, light. Anything Light can do, I can do. I can even do things light cannot do, but that is only because I can shape it." To emphasize her point she created a bird in her hand, a phoenix, out of light.

"Woah." Scott said.

"What exactly can light do?" The professer questioned.

"I can become light, travel with light, see with light, hear with light. Everytime you move, you disrupt the light. I can see that, or more I can feel that. I can feel you speaking also, I do not need ears to hear. I can become darkness. I can create shadows. I can do many things, not all of which are pleasent."

The professor smiled at her. "Thank you for sharing this with me. I greatly appreciate it. Would you like to see the mansion where you will be living now?" He wheeled around toward the can that brought them.

"I would love too." She followed him. Scott helped the Professor into the car and Jean got in the drivers seat.

They drove off, leaving the feild behind them.

"What do you want with me?" *

Do you ever feel like Satan is just trying to get at you? Like he is trying so hard to get you to do something you should not do?

Yesterday I went to a viewing of my friends grandpa. The line to see him went around the building. President Monson, elder Bednar, and Elder Perry were there. I actually got to see elder Perry, he stood right next to me. He smiles so much, and is so happy. He even took the time to walk down the line of people and shake hands, and he greated each person as if he knew them. It made me feel so important.

I knew when I got to the viewing that I wanted to be like that. I want to be remebered for helping people, for making people's lives better, for being a positive influence.

All day yesterday, and for about 2 weeks before that I had been getting steadily more scared about College. but yesterday after I decided I wanted to be the best I can be, It all came to a peak. Everything came together and I was so scared I was shaking and on the verge of tears. I got a headache, got mad at my mom and dad, then as soon as I came home I broke down and just started sobbing. I was shaking, crying, and rocking back and forth. Just sitting in my closet trying to hold myself together.

I started praying. I told Heavely Father how scared I was, How I didn't know what I supposed to do, even how I wanted my pillow( it was missing.)

The amazing thing about Heavely Father is, he knows just what we need and when we need it. My mom found my pillow.

the night before I had read a talk in the ensign aobut gaining faith. Then last night I opened my ensign because I knew I needed to read it. I knew I needed guidence and so I opened it to the talk I was going to read. "Faith in adversity" It was called.

"it's nice not to be so alone."

"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (John 14:27)

that is a scripture he used in the talk.

Now in some stories this would be the turning point, everything is going to get better now. Not in mine.

I woke up this morning and almost started crying again. I read my book of mormon and was disgusted at the nephites and lamanites, they were wicked, and so were cursed with a famine, then they repented and it was taken away. just 4 years later they did the same things that made them stupid in the first place. this happens so many times in the book of mormon, and in real life. It is called the pride cycle.

then I turned on my computer and watched x-men evolution. I wanted to escape. I wanted to not think about anything else. But that is not what I got. I could feel myself sinking lower and lower. I knew that I could not stay this way all day. So I got up and got in some grungy clothes and walked around for a minute. Then I went back to my room and wached some more. When I finally decided enough was enough, my dad came in.

"Are you depressed?"

"Yes"

he looked kind of shocked that I would say it like that. "Well pull yourself out of it."

I smiled a little bitt." That is just what I was going to do."

So I turned on "Bet on It" From High School Musical 2 and listened too it as I excersized. I worked myself hard, it felt so good. putting my frustration out on the excersizes, doing the most I could do, pushing myself.

I got up and was going to start doing chores, but when I saw myself in the mirror, I realized I needed to feel good too, so I took a long shower and then picked out an amazing outfit.

I think in order to feel goood, you have to look good also.

God does not want us to be sloppy all the time. He wants us to be happy and to feel good. We don't have to dress like the world to feel happy. Most of the time that just makes me feel miserable. Be modest, and beautiful.

"Be your own kind of beautiful."

*-Wolverine, X-men

Working on a Ranch Can be Very Exciting --- At Least When You Imagine It To Be

She walked along the fence line, puffing up the hill, knowing she only had one mile left, and she was getting paid. One more mile, one more mile. The dogs bounded ahead, pausing to see if she was still coming then continuing on once again.

Something snapped. The girl whipped around, pausing her ipod. She thought she saw something move between the trees high up the hill, but then she was kind of jumpy right now, not to mention tired. She kept moving.

132 steps later she saw something out of the corner of her eye. She turned to look, but it was gone. Wierd.

She caught up with the dogs who had stopped to rest under a tree. She wished she could stop but she had to drive home and get to a doctors apointment by 2:30. The dogs got up and bounded ahead again, leaving her alone.

This time the snap was right behind her. She turned around so fast she fell to the ground.

"Oh!" She exclaimed as she landed on her behind. When she looked up there was a man standing there. He looked about 25, sandy brown hair, maybe 6'1'' and very dirty.

He extended his hand to help her, she took it. He smiled at her but did not say anything.

"Hi, my name is Eaven." she said hesitantly. "Have you been following me?" He only nodded.

"What is your name?"

He just stood there.

"Can you talk?"

He nodded.

"Why don't you?"

He smiled and shrugged. She noticed his smile was crooked.

"Well.... it was nice... talking to you. But I have to get back now." She turned around and started walking. The dogs had stopped on a hill and watched the whole thing, but as soon as she started walking they did also. She turned around and he was still standing there. she put up a hand to wave to him. he did so also, very enthusiastically.