When Things Don't Turn Out How You Expected

Wow.

I feel like I have changed so much but at the same time not at all.

I feel the same as I always have. There is nothing different about me

at least... that is what I think when I am alone.

Then I spend time with someone I have not seen in a while and I realize how much I have changed, and them also.

I have a friend whom I love dearly, but we have grown apart and she has changed, so much. And in more ways than one.

I feel like we have taken opposite paths and somehow, I have taken the "better" one.

for some reason, when I look at my tree of friends, I am always at the bottom looking up, never at the top, never in the middle. Always at the bottom, but content to see my friends rise.

but recently, I have realized I am progressing also. I have things I want. I have things I can do to make myself become a better person.

And so I have. I have slowly worked my way to a place that I feel comfortable and proud of myself.

for the first time in a while... I love my life. :D