Promise

So remember how running is contagious? or just a love of running.
Anyway, I showed my dad the right way to run, and he tried it out on his own. He decided he was just going to go a 1/4 of a mile, but before he knew it, he had gone for 1/2 a mile, all while running. He hasn't been able to do that before!
Then today I got my mom to run around the block with me, and even though her throat hurt when we were done she couldn't seem to stop running.
Maybe they don't love it yet, but hopefully a love will grow. Maybe I will be able to run with my family!
But then I also wonder.... What if they develop the love of running that I am working so hard to forge? I want to love running. When I am not running I love it. But when I run, I can't seem to find the place when I can run comfortably, when I can just go and not have to think about anything until 10 miles later when I need a drink of water.
I don't want to run with anyone, I want to figure out how I run on my own with out having to worry about how fast I am going when I will be home if someone wants to talk or if I am talking to much. I can't seem to find a way to do this.
I should just go one day. Just go. I wish it would rain. I wish my shoes would come. I wish I wish I wish. I will do this. I don't care how long it takes, I will run 42 miles consecutively.