multiple posts in one night... sometimes one just gets to long and you have to start another one.
I feel so depressed.
I feel:
Unloved
Unwanted
Alone
But I know that I have been treating omy best friend that way... and he hates it. I hate it. she hates it. WE ALL HATE IT!
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!
I just want to SCREAM! CRY! PULL MY HAIR OUT!
devoid of color... that is how I feel
Friday, January 30, 2009
Conflicting Desires
When I get angry, everything that I should be angry about comes crashing down on me and I feel like I am stuck in the mud and no one is around to pull me out. I am mad an everyone and the stupid things they do no matter hwo small. like yesterday, some stupid people were texting and talking the ENTIRE music group meeting. I wanted to take thier phones away and break them in half. it is times like those that I am way glad I can't text. but now that I have seen other people from the perspective of not texting I realize that texting is not for conversation.. it is for question. it is not to take the place of actually face to face talk, but for a boredom vent. anyway.. I got WAY mad at stupid people yesterday and then I rembebered what one of my friends is doing right now that makes me sad and angry .. but in actuality does not bother me at all. I had multiple people try to cheer me up, and I have discovered that I LOVE my hair to be played with. so please, when ever it is down feel free to run your fingers through my hair. :D
Another reason I am so discouraged is... all... ALL of my close friends that I have had, are not so close anymore. I NEVER go without a close friend, a best friend. and now my two bestest friends in the entire world have either been taken out of my life or taken themselves out of my life and it hurts. it leaves a gigantic hole the size of space, and space never ends. I am empty. I feel like I can't go on. The only thing I can do is pray and hope that now is the time for me to make some new friends or for my best friends to come back. but for one of them, they can't, being at school. The other might, but I can't tell just yet.
i have only just realized this. When I am scared I am going to lose my friend, or think my friendship is secure, I push them away. I don't mean too. i try not too. but that is waht I do and I am trying to stop. and now that I am trying to get them back... neither one is available. and ... i am left alone in the darkness.
When the lord closes a door, somewhere he opens a window. now I just have to find the window, but I have lost my map, my guides, and my companions. so I guess I will just wander aimlessly until I find it.
I want to say yes
but my heart says no
I want to just cry
but the tears won't flow
I wish I could know
What I just can't say
What it really comes down too
At the end of the day
When I look back
hour after hour
there's somethin' not right
Somethin' don't flow
I can't spell it out
i can't write it down
I've tried everything
except for sound
and I now I'm tryin'
something new
I really hope it tells me
what to do.
Well nothing seems right
It all seems wrong
no matter what I do
I can't go on
knowing that we have
ruined our song
Everything I
have tried to be
Has come around
and jumped over me
I have tried to find
the answer to this prayer
but everything
is up in the air
our lives are
different
they're not the same
they can't ever be the same again
everything I try
goes up in smoke
everything you try is
shoved down your throat
It's like the world is
dragging us down
it won't stop till
we're out of town
But I have decided
I won't be stopped
i can do this thing
i can still try
no matter what I will not lay down and die
you an't pull me down any more
I feel likemy feet are up off of the floor
wings take me up in glorious flight
I'll find me dream
i'll bring it to you
and there is nothing that we aren't able to do!
Another reason I am so discouraged is... all... ALL of my close friends that I have had, are not so close anymore. I NEVER go without a close friend, a best friend. and now my two bestest friends in the entire world have either been taken out of my life or taken themselves out of my life and it hurts. it leaves a gigantic hole the size of space, and space never ends. I am empty. I feel like I can't go on. The only thing I can do is pray and hope that now is the time for me to make some new friends or for my best friends to come back. but for one of them, they can't, being at school. The other might, but I can't tell just yet.
i have only just realized this. When I am scared I am going to lose my friend, or think my friendship is secure, I push them away. I don't mean too. i try not too. but that is waht I do and I am trying to stop. and now that I am trying to get them back... neither one is available. and ... i am left alone in the darkness.
When the lord closes a door, somewhere he opens a window. now I just have to find the window, but I have lost my map, my guides, and my companions. so I guess I will just wander aimlessly until I find it.
I want to say yes
but my heart says no
I want to just cry
but the tears won't flow
I wish I could know
What I just can't say
What it really comes down too
At the end of the day
When I look back
hour after hour
there's somethin' not right
Somethin' don't flow
I can't spell it out
i can't write it down
I've tried everything
except for sound
and I now I'm tryin'
something new
I really hope it tells me
what to do.
Well nothing seems right
It all seems wrong
no matter what I do
I can't go on
knowing that we have
ruined our song
Everything I
have tried to be
Has come around
and jumped over me
I have tried to find
the answer to this prayer
but everything
is up in the air
our lives are
different
they're not the same
they can't ever be the same again
everything I try
goes up in smoke
everything you try is
shoved down your throat
It's like the world is
dragging us down
it won't stop till
we're out of town
But I have decided
I won't be stopped
i can do this thing
i can still try
no matter what I will not lay down and die
you an't pull me down any more
I feel likemy feet are up off of the floor
wings take me up in glorious flight
I'll find me dream
i'll bring it to you
and there is nothing that we aren't able to do!
STRESSSS
GA! College Stuff is SOOOO stressfull! They make me want to gag!
I stayed home from school to do this and now... I am all stressed out...
And I have not even finished ONE scholarship!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
ok it is decided
Gaven, Clay, and ... Lance are NOT yucky.
they are all amazing... and most of the others... are not making me happy.
:D
they are all amazing... and most of the others... are not making me happy.
:D
boys are so yucky
this is the first time I am saying this in ernest.
Boys are Stupid.
TExting is Stupid.
Talking over someone is Stupid.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Boys are Stupid.
TExting is Stupid.
Talking over someone is Stupid.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Eaven and Lance
Eaven stuffed her hands into her pockets to shield them from the bitter cold. There brown hair was tucked into the scarf that covered her neck and her jacket hid her figure. Her purse dangled from her wrist, bouncing off of her knee as she walked. She had just walked off of the bus, and was on her way home, ready to proceed without conversation, when she felt a hand grab her elbow. Shrugging it off she turned and faced a young man whose hair was glistening with the falling snow.
“Excuse me, lady, but you dropped this.” He held up a piece of paper with scribble on every inch. Eaven gasped.
“Oh! Thank you!” she trumpeted.” Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! I don’t know what would have happened if I had lost this! Thank you!” She shook his hand fiercely.
He smiled back at her and said a quiet “ you are welcome,” before he let go of her hand.
She smiled again and turned around ready to continue her walk home. As she walked, the man caught up to her.
“Excuse me, Lady, but may I walk you home?” His face looked hopeful when Eaven turned to look at him, she couldn’t’ turn him down.
“ Yeah sure… So….”
“Well, Lady, do you mind that I call you lady?” His emerald eyes turned to gaze at her expression.
She smiled, “ I think it is chivalrous and romantic, I don’t mind at all.”
Suddenly his expression grew concerned. “ I am not meaning to come on strong, just trying to make conversation.”
She, once again, smiled to herself, touched at his concern.
“ I understand, and I think it is very appropriate seeing as you don’t even know my name.” She wondered if he would ask for her name at all.
“Well I am glad, I just saw that you dropped your paper and wanted to give it to you, I know how frantic I am when I lose something, even if it is small.” He grinned at her, showing his smile was slightly crooked.
“Yes, well that paper has a lot of things on it that would hurt me to lose, I am glad you gave it back. Do you live around here?” They were almost to her house; she was scared she would never see this young gentleman again.
“Yes I do actually, we passed on the way here, just one street over on the corner. I work in the city so I take the early morning bus to get there on time, them get home around this time every day.” They had reached her door, and she was loath to part with him so soon after meeting him, but knowing he only lived a street away made the parting easier.
“ Well,” She muttered, twirling her foot on the ground, “This is my house… I guess I will, see you later?”
“Definitely.” She smiled again, and stunned her by making a deep bow. She retaliated by curtsying, pretending to hold a dress out.
“Thank you, young man, for escorting me home.”
He stood up and smiled.
“It was my pleasure.” He turned and walked away.
She sighed and opened the door, and then he turned around.“ By the way… My name is Lance.”
What do you think>? please leave any comments, or suggestions you have for it
“Excuse me, lady, but you dropped this.” He held up a piece of paper with scribble on every inch. Eaven gasped.
“Oh! Thank you!” she trumpeted.” Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! I don’t know what would have happened if I had lost this! Thank you!” She shook his hand fiercely.
He smiled back at her and said a quiet “ you are welcome,” before he let go of her hand.
She smiled again and turned around ready to continue her walk home. As she walked, the man caught up to her.
“Excuse me, Lady, but may I walk you home?” His face looked hopeful when Eaven turned to look at him, she couldn’t’ turn him down.
“ Yeah sure… So….”
“Well, Lady, do you mind that I call you lady?” His emerald eyes turned to gaze at her expression.
She smiled, “ I think it is chivalrous and romantic, I don’t mind at all.”
Suddenly his expression grew concerned. “ I am not meaning to come on strong, just trying to make conversation.”
She, once again, smiled to herself, touched at his concern.
“ I understand, and I think it is very appropriate seeing as you don’t even know my name.” She wondered if he would ask for her name at all.
“Well I am glad, I just saw that you dropped your paper and wanted to give it to you, I know how frantic I am when I lose something, even if it is small.” He grinned at her, showing his smile was slightly crooked.
“Yes, well that paper has a lot of things on it that would hurt me to lose, I am glad you gave it back. Do you live around here?” They were almost to her house; she was scared she would never see this young gentleman again.
“Yes I do actually, we passed on the way here, just one street over on the corner. I work in the city so I take the early morning bus to get there on time, them get home around this time every day.” They had reached her door, and she was loath to part with him so soon after meeting him, but knowing he only lived a street away made the parting easier.
“ Well,” She muttered, twirling her foot on the ground, “This is my house… I guess I will, see you later?”
“Definitely.” She smiled again, and stunned her by making a deep bow. She retaliated by curtsying, pretending to hold a dress out.
“Thank you, young man, for escorting me home.”
He stood up and smiled.
“It was my pleasure.” He turned and walked away.
She sighed and opened the door, and then he turned around.“ By the way… My name is Lance.”
What do you think>? please leave any comments, or suggestions you have for it
I am going to kick your butt
hehe... I kicked Kane's face the other day.... it was not hard, just funny
I am sitting here in Mrs. Stuart's classroom having nothing to do so I am not really doing anything except for typin gon here.. I feel like I have nothing to do...
Your eyes are like... Tree Bark! hehe
Bob the Pirate!
Fast/FAt bat
Spork Man
I love super hero's especially when I draw them with highlighters! YAYA!~ I love highlighters.
A Metaphore.....
We danced to the moon.
a Simile....
She was considered as saintly as the pope himself.
An Idiom....
Pushing Daisies
A Pun....
A Man walked into a bar and said ouch
A Personification....
The wind whispered throught the leaves spiraling them in a graceful spin down to the welcoming earth.
Satire....
That 70's show
MAd TV
Onomatopoeia....
Clickity clack
Foreshadowing....
" He is in prison for life..." " well life ain't life."
Hyperbole....
My heart flew out of my chest when I saw him
Imagry....
The blood flowed freely into my mouth filling it with a metalic flavor.
Irony....
The opposite of what you expect to happen
Mood....
Sad, hyper, excited, angry, depressed, agrivated, ecstatic
Tone....
Melancholy, sarcastic, depressing, flirtatious, humerous, tragic
Hehe I love writing things like this!
I am sitting here in Mrs. Stuart's classroom having nothing to do so I am not really doing anything except for typin gon here.. I feel like I have nothing to do...
Your eyes are like... Tree Bark! hehe
Bob the Pirate!
Fast/FAt bat
Spork Man
I love super hero's especially when I draw them with highlighters! YAYA!~ I love highlighters.
A Metaphore.....
We danced to the moon.
a Simile....
She was considered as saintly as the pope himself.
An Idiom....
Pushing Daisies
A Pun....
A Man walked into a bar and said ouch
A Personification....
The wind whispered throught the leaves spiraling them in a graceful spin down to the welcoming earth.
Satire....
That 70's show
MAd TV
Onomatopoeia....
Clickity clack
Foreshadowing....
" He is in prison for life..." " well life ain't life."
Hyperbole....
My heart flew out of my chest when I saw him
Imagry....
The blood flowed freely into my mouth filling it with a metalic flavor.
Irony....
The opposite of what you expect to happen
Mood....
Sad, hyper, excited, angry, depressed, agrivated, ecstatic
Tone....
Melancholy, sarcastic, depressing, flirtatious, humerous, tragic
Hehe I love writing things like this!
Monday, January 26, 2009
Some Day My Prince Will Come
Romeo Romeo...
Where the heck art thou!
Ready for the day when the sunset is waiting to see me riding into on a stallion with my knight in shining armor!
So this is... is this... love?
I know you I walked with you once upon a dream! I know you the gleem in your eyes is so familiar a gleem!
I need a map... why?... because I keep getting lost in your eyes.
She slumped to the ground cradeling her head in her hands. " Why do you have to make everything so difficult!" She moaned at him.
He took her hands and pulled her up.
" oh everything was going ---" She started but he interrupted her with a kiss. "Perfect...."
Where the heck art thou!
Ready for the day when the sunset is waiting to see me riding into on a stallion with my knight in shining armor!
So this is... is this... love?
I know you I walked with you once upon a dream! I know you the gleem in your eyes is so familiar a gleem!
I need a map... why?... because I keep getting lost in your eyes.
She slumped to the ground cradeling her head in her hands. " Why do you have to make everything so difficult!" She moaned at him.
He took her hands and pulled her up.
" oh everything was going ---" She started but he interrupted her with a kiss. "Perfect...."
Sunday, January 25, 2009
roses are red
I feel so happy. When I stood up there on the stand today I knew I had made a right choice. Then as I walked back to my seat I could tell, everyone was thankful to me because I made a right choice. Every person I looked at smiled at me and made me feel like I was worth something more.
Spiritually Minded Is Life Eternal!
:) Love Storys
Sun and Moon, Ice and Snow - Jessica Day George
I LOVE THIS BOOK!
I LOVE THIS BOOK!
Please read it! I am.. was reading it for a book club I am in which we have named The Ladies and Gent. It is so good!
I love it! I think I just LOVE Fairy Tales... and you know especially ones that I have never heard before! Like goose Girl, East of the sun and west of the moon (which is what this book is based on) :D I LOVE IT!
I just really want to type right now.
I am so hapy right now! I love taking pictures! I love reading, it helps me become calm and such.
I love singing and dancing and playing the piano...
I love snow!
I love that book!
i <3> Fairy Tales
And so.... Now I have nothing to say... so I will type later if I can think of anything!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Once Upon A December
How to be love?
How to be liked?
Is like saying
"how to ride a bike?"
Love is soft
Love is kind
it will never ever
rob you blind
When in tears
or in distress
It never leaves you
when depressed
Love is true
Love is forever
it will never waver
it's that clever
:D I just made that up on the spot! I love my life....
Now some of you may ask " did she meet some guy?" "when did this happen?" " why don't I know about him?" " what is he like?" " How did she meet him?" "who is he!" "Where is he?"
but... have no fear... there is no man for me yet... sadly, but eventually there will be... but until that day... I will just write sappy love poems to myself and Lance.. :D
How to be liked?
Is like saying
"how to ride a bike?"
Love is soft
Love is kind
it will never ever
rob you blind
When in tears
or in distress
It never leaves you
when depressed
Love is true
Love is forever
it will never waver
it's that clever
:D I just made that up on the spot! I love my life....
Now some of you may ask " did she meet some guy?" "when did this happen?" " why don't I know about him?" " what is he like?" " How did she meet him?" "who is he!" "Where is he?"
but... have no fear... there is no man for me yet... sadly, but eventually there will be... but until that day... I will just write sappy love poems to myself and Lance.. :D
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I just need to type right now or talk or something... I feel like I can't control anything that is going on around me. Everything is happening all at once and I can't do it! College applications are due finaincial aid is ue people want to know what I want to be what I am going to do where I am going to live. Stupid people told me to do a surrvey and would give me a $25 gift card to amazon and they DIDN't
Unloved
Unwanted
Alone
how on earth can I do all of this at one time! i have never been good at mulit tasking! I can't even talk ont eh phone and so the dishes at the same time. I have to pace whilst talking ont eh phone and then do a dish then do soemthing else I can't concentrate on both now they woant me to do all of this at one! what am i ssupposed to do!?!?!?? And does it lok like i care about spelling or grammer of punctuation i didnt' think so because guess what I DON:T sdhoiajiosdvjkljksdfa
so there! that is qwhat it hink and i am not going to delete any o f this and just let it come as it may vebecause i don't want to care right now and there has to be something that i can not carea bout and so that is how it is going to work i think that when something happens something else should be there to help a person through it it because you kinow it does not help when the something does not show up and you are stuck there all by your lonsesom and there is nothing to bdo but blog you rlife away because youa re lame like that cand don't want to read an amazing book and odn't wnat to clean your pants so you just put on other pants that are not really that awesome
i thate homework i hate scientce and i hate math i think they shou dall die together i have a science class and i really want to drop it but i should not and i know that i should not because it does not make anywsence for me to not be challanged and you knwo what i say TYOU SHOULD BE!
i agree with jenna t the moment when i say CRYING SUCKS!@ but i am not crying yet i am just being lame and typing out all of my unrational angry feelings and still opusing the DELETE key! dang me! jdkjopsdkjlefwjiojasdjklvnkgnl;w,dmflkajsdfjhdklfjlasyhioutgwhntfwjkeniovdyhgnawlk;jhoiajfskadjfoi
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gasjdgoijsad fgjsadikf do you ever feel like that most of teh time i only do that when i am way hyper and emily is online but irght now i am just unreasonably mad.
there is not reason for me to be mad i mean it is not like it was supposed to happend and it is just like what things have been doing for the past 3 months....
none of this is going to make any sense unless you know exactly what i mean. and if you don't know exactly what i mean i am not going to tell you so you will have to decifer it and i will not tell you the code because i changed it like 3 times in there so :P I am not angry anymore just sad... time is a long time and i wish that it would pause in certain moemtns or jnot let other moments stay behind and bring them forward but if that were to happen God would be angry because he said it is not for you to know what or when something will happen... that is not exactly what he said and i am to lazy to go get my scriptures and look it up but it is nin the new testiment if that helps anyone who was wondering.
i feel like ... a dead cat on the road on the way to school. what could be worse? i mean the cat is dead on a busy road that is leading to hell.... well.. maybe nto quite that bad... more like... high school... that is a better word for it. and no i do not owe anyone money because i used taht word as a place and not an adjective. i want to play kingdom hearts but i dont' think james would let me and i only have 20 minutes.
Unloved
Unwanted
Alone
how on earth can I do all of this at one time! i have never been good at mulit tasking! I can't even talk ont eh phone and so the dishes at the same time. I have to pace whilst talking ont eh phone and then do a dish then do soemthing else I can't concentrate on both now they woant me to do all of this at one! what am i ssupposed to do!?!?!?? And does it lok like i care about spelling or grammer of punctuation i didnt' think so because guess what I DON:T sdhoiajiosdvjkljksdfa
so there! that is qwhat it hink and i am not going to delete any o f this and just let it come as it may vebecause i don't want to care right now and there has to be something that i can not carea bout and so that is how it is going to work i think that when something happens something else should be there to help a person through it it because you kinow it does not help when the something does not show up and you are stuck there all by your lonsesom and there is nothing to bdo but blog you rlife away because youa re lame like that cand don't want to read an amazing book and odn't wnat to clean your pants so you just put on other pants that are not really that awesome
i thate homework i hate scientce and i hate math i think they shou dall die together i have a science class and i really want to drop it but i should not and i know that i should not because it does not make anywsence for me to not be challanged and you knwo what i say TYOU SHOULD BE!
i agree with jenna t the moment when i say CRYING SUCKS!@ but i am not crying yet i am just being lame and typing out all of my unrational angry feelings and still opusing the DELETE key! dang me! jdkjopsdkjlefwjiojasdjklvnkgnl;w,dmflkajsdfjhdklfjlasyhioutgwhntfwjkeniovdyhgnawlk;jhoiajfskadjfoi
fjasiofjesjagkosjgkl
sdfajgoasdjgas
gjkasgj
agjksj
gasjdgoijsad fgjsadikf do you ever feel like that most of teh time i only do that when i am way hyper and emily is online but irght now i am just unreasonably mad.
there is not reason for me to be mad i mean it is not like it was supposed to happend and it is just like what things have been doing for the past 3 months....
none of this is going to make any sense unless you know exactly what i mean. and if you don't know exactly what i mean i am not going to tell you so you will have to decifer it and i will not tell you the code because i changed it like 3 times in there so :P I am not angry anymore just sad... time is a long time and i wish that it would pause in certain moemtns or jnot let other moments stay behind and bring them forward but if that were to happen God would be angry because he said it is not for you to know what or when something will happen... that is not exactly what he said and i am to lazy to go get my scriptures and look it up but it is nin the new testiment if that helps anyone who was wondering.
i feel like ... a dead cat on the road on the way to school. what could be worse? i mean the cat is dead on a busy road that is leading to hell.... well.. maybe nto quite that bad... more like... high school... that is a better word for it. and no i do not owe anyone money because i used taht word as a place and not an adjective. i want to play kingdom hearts but i dont' think james would let me and i only have 20 minutes.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
My Most Favorite book of All Time!!!!!
The Goose Girl is my favorite book! I LOVE IT! It is my kind of fairy tale! The other books in teh series are good too but I just love this one! My favorite part is:
"Well then, the first thing I would like to tell you, my lady, and I'd better tell it quickly because my heart is likely to break through my rib cage any moment, the first thing is that I love you. And the second thing is that, as much as I honor your former profession, I don't think your geese care much for your betrothed, and I hope they hadn't any plans on sharing our bed."
"Oh, but think what use they'd be," said Ani. "They'd encourage snooping maids to stay away from our bedroom, and on particularly busy days we could stick hats on them and let them receive some of our supplicants."
"Ah, yes, excellent point."
He smiled, and all signs of worry disappeared from his face. With happy enthusiasm, he stood up, his hands on his sword hilt, and shouted, " I Geric-Sinath of Gerhard, declare right now that you are beautiful and you're perfect and I'll slay any man who tries to take you from my side. Goose girl, may I kiss you?"
She answered by standing and kissing him first and held his cheeks and closed her eyes and felt sure as bones and deep as blood that she had found her place.
And there you have it... My very most favoriteset part of my very most favoritest book!
Monday, January 19, 2009
love Poems
Love's Philosophy
The fountains Mingle with the River
and the Rivers with the Ocean,
The winds of Heaven mix for ever
with a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single;
all things by a lawy divine
In one spirit meet and mingle.
Why not I with Thine?
See the mountains kiss high Heaven
and the waves clasp one another;
No sister-flower would be forgiven
If it disdained its brother.
and the sunlight clasps the earth
And the moonbeams kiss the sea:
What is all this sweet work worth
If thou kiss not me?
Percy Bysshe Shelley
To My Dear and Loving Husband
If ever two were one, then surely we.
If ever man were loved by wife, then thee;
If ever wife was happy in a man,
compare with me ye women if you can.
I prize thy love more than whole mines of gold,
Or all the riches that the East doth hold.'My love is such that rivers cannont quench,
Nor ought but love from thee give recompense.
Thy love is such I can no way repay;
The heavens reward thee manifold, I pray.
Then while we live, in love let's so perserver,
That when we live no more we may live ever
Anne Bradstreet
and for my Favorite
Faults
They came to tell your faults to me,
They named them over one by one;
I laughed aloud when they were done,
I knew them all so well before;--
Oh, they were blind, to blind to see
Your faults had made me love you more.
Sara Teasdale
The fountains Mingle with the River
and the Rivers with the Ocean,
The winds of Heaven mix for ever
with a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single;
all things by a lawy divine
In one spirit meet and mingle.
Why not I with Thine?
See the mountains kiss high Heaven
and the waves clasp one another;
No sister-flower would be forgiven
If it disdained its brother.
and the sunlight clasps the earth
And the moonbeams kiss the sea:
What is all this sweet work worth
If thou kiss not me?
Percy Bysshe Shelley
To My Dear and Loving Husband
If ever two were one, then surely we.
If ever man were loved by wife, then thee;
If ever wife was happy in a man,
compare with me ye women if you can.
I prize thy love more than whole mines of gold,
Or all the riches that the East doth hold.'My love is such that rivers cannont quench,
Nor ought but love from thee give recompense.
Thy love is such I can no way repay;
The heavens reward thee manifold, I pray.
Then while we live, in love let's so perserver,
That when we live no more we may live ever
Anne Bradstreet
and for my Favorite
Faults
They came to tell your faults to me,
They named them over one by one;
I laughed aloud when they were done,
I knew them all so well before;--
Oh, they were blind, to blind to see
Your faults had made me love you more.
Sara Teasdale
A Top 10 List of things for a Hopeless Romantic
1. When I go to work, he send a limo to pick me up.
2. Ask me out on a date, after we are married, then come a pick me up in a tuxedo and then takes me out in a limo and buys me an amazing dress, and takes me dancing at an AMAZING resturant.
3. Kisses me in front of a million people
4. When It rains, he dresses in a tux, and I in a dress and dances with me
5. Hold My hand in the movie theater, and cuddle with me on the couch.
6. Sparaticly buy me flowers
7. Sing me a song when I wake up in the morning.
8. Take me out to breakfast in my Pajamaz.. and him in his.
9. Kidnap me and take me on a picnic in the mountains while camping
10. Take me on a drive and "suddenly" run out of gas in the middle of no where
2. Ask me out on a date, after we are married, then come a pick me up in a tuxedo and then takes me out in a limo and buys me an amazing dress, and takes me dancing at an AMAZING resturant.
3. Kisses me in front of a million people
4. When It rains, he dresses in a tux, and I in a dress and dances with me
5. Hold My hand in the movie theater, and cuddle with me on the couch.
6. Sparaticly buy me flowers
7. Sing me a song when I wake up in the morning.
8. Take me out to breakfast in my Pajamaz.. and him in his.
9. Kidnap me and take me on a picnic in the mountains while camping
10. Take me on a drive and "suddenly" run out of gas in the middle of no where
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Barbara Manatee!
I tried drawing a platapus on Clays fingernail today... it did not work out for me very well.
I tried talking to a boy today... It did not work out for me very well.
I tried doing my laundry today... It did not work out for me very well.
I tried sleeping in class today... It did not work out for me very well.
I tried to write a song today... It was amazing!
i only really have the first part but i love it!
oh my goodness i wish I could do some intricate things with my right hand. cause right now it is all in my left.. but it still sounds cool!
I tried talking to a boy today... It did not work out for me very well.
I tried doing my laundry today... It did not work out for me very well.
I tried sleeping in class today... It did not work out for me very well.
I tried to write a song today... It was amazing!
i only really have the first part but i love it!
oh my goodness i wish I could do some intricate things with my right hand. cause right now it is all in my left.. but it still sounds cool!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Poot....
:D i love making Seminary Videos! Even if I am embarassed for me to be shown to the whole school acting like that...
Suprisingly I had a really fun time at work tonight.
I wish _____ were not... or were.... or both.. :D
I <3 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Bites! They are so yummy.. a little at a time cause when you eat a bunch.. they are not that good...
I am a little tired... can you tell?
:D I am so excited for Girls Day! Morgan and I are getting this all planned! oh yeah.. I am excited for my dress too! Oh man.. I need more boys to be here...
Suprisingly I had a really fun time at work tonight.
I wish _____ were not... or were.... or both.. :D
I <3 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Bites! They are so yummy.. a little at a time cause when you eat a bunch.. they are not that good...
I am a little tired... can you tell?
:D I am so excited for Girls Day! Morgan and I are getting this all planned! oh yeah.. I am excited for my dress too! Oh man.. I need more boys to be here...
Thursday, January 8, 2009
All you had was your next door neighbor!
I love serving....
This morning this lady was trying to push two wheelchairs and so I took one from her and helped her. :D
Then my mom brought all of the groceries home and I put them all away.. and organized the pantry.. without her asking. :D
It makes me feel so happy.
This morning this lady was trying to push two wheelchairs and so I took one from her and helped her. :D
Then my mom brought all of the groceries home and I put them all away.. and organized the pantry.. without her asking. :D
It makes me feel so happy.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Have you seen it yet?
It is amazing!
We watched it for mutual on tuesday. and you can download the songs and listen to them right on the internet.
Today I read the New Era for the first time in a few months...
I started and it seemed to take FOREVER to finish just one story... and it took forever to finish the second story too ... but then something happened... something that only happens in the movies, wierd I know.I lost track of what time it was and I just read. page after page. all the way to page 38, then I felt like I just had to write about it!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
On a Lighter Note
I love singing.
I love Dancing
~~I am sorry Kane, that we never dance anymore. I miss it.
I love playing the Piano.. I need to be better.
I love God
I love my Scriptures.
I love my journal
I love Ella Enchanted
~~Dear Ella,
Impatience is not usually my weakness. But your letters torment me. They make me long to saddle my hourse and ride to Frell, where I would make you explain yourself.
they are playful, interesting, thoughtful, and (occasionally) Serious. I'm overjoyed to receive them, yet thye bring misery. You say little of your daily life; I hace no idea how you occupy yourself. I don't mind; I enjoy guessing at the mystery. But whata I really long to know you do not tell either: What you feel, although I've given you hints by the score of my regard.
You like me. You wouldn't waste time or paper on a being you didn't like. But I think I've loved you since we met at your mothers funeral. I want to be with you forever and beyond, buy you write that you are too young to marry or too old or too short or too hungry -- until I crumple your letters up in despair, only to smooth them out again for a twelfth reading, hunting for hidden meanings.
Father asks frequently in his letters whether I fancy any Ayorthaian young lady or any in our acquaintance at home. I say no. I suppose I'm confessing another fault: pride. I don't want him to know that I love if my affections are not returned.
You would charm him, and Mother too. They would be yours Completely. As I am.
What a beaufiful bride you'll be, whomever you marry at whatever age. and what a queen if I am the man! Who has your grace? Your expression? Your voice? I could extol your virtues endlessly, but I want you to finish reading and answer me quickly.
Today I cannot write of Ayortha or my doings or anything. I can only post this and wiat.
Love ( it is such a relief to pen the word!), love, love--
Char
I love that letter... it is amazing
I love Ever
I love Horseradish -- bitter truths you can't avoid.
~it is always cruel to laugh at people, of course, although sometimes if they are wearing an ugly hat it is hard to control yourself.
~Normally it is not polite to go into somebody's room without knocking, but you can make an exception if the person is dead, or pretending to be dead.
~Taking one's chances is like taking a bath, because sometimes you end up feeling comforable and warm, and sometimes there is something terrible lurking around that you cannont see until it is too late and you can do nothing else but scream and cling to a plastic duck.
~Many old folktales protray Death as a cloacked figure who knocks on the doors of the souls he has come to whicsk away, but that is not always the way of the world. Sometimes Deathe may approach the door very slowly and very loudly, so that by the time he knocks everyone in the neighborhood is aware of his approach, or he may prefer to pick the lock of the back door and sit up all night in your kitchen until you stroll downstairs in your bathrobe and learn that he has been waiting for you, sitting in your favorite chair and rearranging your silverwear when he got bored.
Love is a wonderful thing, something not everyone has but everyone wants
Not all things are liked, but everything is loved.
Even when the world hates you, friends ditch you, and loved ones spit you would and shake you like a dog, God loves you... and so does your mom.
I love my LIFE!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Things I Hate... not like... not dislike... HATE!
1. Money
2. Forms
3. War
4. Snakes
5. Lack of Sleep
6. Not being challanged
7. Being Bored
8. Being Sad
That reminds me of the grinch " Hate Hate Hate... Double Hate... Loath Entierly!"
How am I supposed to go to school!
2. Forms
3. War
4. Snakes
5. Lack of Sleep
6. Not being challanged
7. Being Bored
8. Being Sad
That reminds me of the grinch " Hate Hate Hate... Double Hate... Loath Entierly!"
How am I supposed to go to school!
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