I just need to type right now or talk or something... I feel like I can't control anything that is going on around me. Everything is happening all at once and I can't do it! College applications are due finaincial aid is ue people want to know what I want to be what I am going to do where I am going to live. Stupid people told me to do a surrvey and would give me a $25 gift card to amazon and they DIDN't
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how on earth can I do all of this at one time! i have never been good at mulit tasking! I can't even talk ont eh phone and so the dishes at the same time. I have to pace whilst talking ont eh phone and then do a dish then do soemthing else I can't concentrate on both now they woant me to do all of this at one! what am i ssupposed to do!?!?!?? And does it lok like i care about spelling or grammer of punctuation i didnt' think so because guess what I DON:T sdhoiajiosdvjkljksdfa
so there! that is qwhat it hink and i am not going to delete any o f this and just let it come as it may vebecause i don't want to care right now and there has to be something that i can not carea bout and so that is how it is going to work i think that when something happens something else should be there to help a person through it it because you kinow it does not help when the something does not show up and you are stuck there all by your lonsesom and there is nothing to bdo but blog you rlife away because youa re lame like that cand don't want to read an amazing book and odn't wnat to clean your pants so you just put on other pants that are not really that awesome
i thate homework i hate scientce and i hate math i think they shou dall die together i have a science class and i really want to drop it but i should not and i know that i should not because it does not make anywsence for me to not be challanged and you knwo what i say TYOU SHOULD BE!
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there is not reason for me to be mad i mean it is not like it was supposed to happend and it is just like what things have been doing for the past 3 months....
none of this is going to make any sense unless you know exactly what i mean. and if you don't know exactly what i mean i am not going to tell you so you will have to decifer it and i will not tell you the code because i changed it like 3 times in there so :P I am not angry anymore just sad... time is a long time and i wish that it would pause in certain moemtns or jnot let other moments stay behind and bring them forward but if that were to happen God would be angry because he said it is not for you to know what or when something will happen... that is not exactly what he said and i am to lazy to go get my scriptures and look it up but it is nin the new testiment if that helps anyone who was wondering.
i feel like ... a dead cat on the road on the way to school. what could be worse? i mean the cat is dead on a busy road that is leading to hell.... well.. maybe nto quite that bad... more like... high school... that is a better word for it. and no i do not owe anyone money because i used taht word as a place and not an adjective. i want to play kingdom hearts but i dont' think james would let me and i only have 20 minutes.