A Step Forward Calls for Something New

July 28th, 2008 - Aug 12th, 2011
Three years of blogging.
Three years of venting.
Three years of struggling life.
Three years of remembering.
Three years of fun.
Three years of laughing.
Three years of crying.
Three years of running.
Three years of fan girlness.
Three years of sitting.
Three years of typing.

Here's to Three years well spent.

Moving to a new phase.
Moving to a new place.
Moving away.
Moving forward.
Moving.
Moving.
Moving.
Moving.
Moving on.

Continue to follow my life on my new blog.
A Step Forward Calls for Something New.

Drarwing!

Amazing Gesture Drawing Tool!
I have been using it a lot.
But I feel like it is not helping.
Then again I have only done it three times.
But I get to have 3 art classes this semester! That will be good!
the Phenomenon of Color, Intro to Life Drawing(figure drawing), Portrait drawing.
I am so excited!
All of those classes will be so much fun!
I hope I don't get overwhelmed with school and a fulltime job.
I don't know when I will find the time to do all of this!
Speaking of full time jobs... I need to fill out my application!
Time to do that!

Buy My House! (or Rent to Own!)

Well it is almost here.
I wish our house would sell.
Buy, Rent to Own, Whatever! Just come and look at it!
Come Buy My House!   

65 East 1860 North Tooele, UT 84074
Come and See it.
Walk through.
A low price for a beautiful home! $159,900!
Wonderful neighbors and view of the surrounding area.
A Well kept yard and plenty of space to grow!
A den/loft that can be used as a 4th bedroom with a HUGE closet. The closet can fit a bed in it!
8 walk in closets.
Living room, family room, kitchen, bathroom, laundry room, pantry, walk in closet under the stairs(like Harry Potter!) on the first floor.
3 Bedrooms (including master), 2 bathrooms, loft, 6 walk in closets upstairs.
A finished Front and backyard with sprinklers installed. 3 fruit trees and raised garden beds. A beautiful flowering archway with a path leading to it. Plenty of space to play!
A Wonderful home to go to a wonderful family!

Another site where our house is listed!
 And Another!
And yet Another!
Here is another one!
He's another!
I think you get the idea....
Want to come and see my house? Here are some numbers to call to come and see it!
(435)840-2760 (Ask for Barbara)
(435)843-8246 (Ask for Barbara)
(435)840-4959 (Ask for Cindy Wood)
Buy or Rent to Own!

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I just loves those times when I wake up an hour early, get in the shower and then when I get out realize it is 4:50... not 5:50 like I thought. *sigh* Oh well, At least I got my nails done!
Girls Camp: Yes or No?
I think it depends.
Leader or no? Leader, yes, girl, no.
Eaven=Leader, Girls Camp=mostly yes.
Percy Jackson with Emily = HECK YES!
Percy Jackson online RPG = YES! but I am spending to much time on there!
Eaven with St. George=lets go now before I explode from all of my held in excitment!
Eaven with waiting for house to sell......=Shoot me now!
Eaven with going to bed late...=

Process

Eaven has been thinking lately.
"a Dangerous Past time!"
"I Know!"
but all the same. I know what I am going to do with my life right now, but as soon as I get over with this part, I really don't know. Am I going to move back? Am I going to go back to USU? Will I stay down there? Will I marry? Will I pay off my debt?
These thoughts sort of snuck up on me.
I was not ready for them.
But now they are here.
And now I am thinking about them.
*sigh*

Poison

Let me Just get this out of the way...
X-men Is Amazing
There... Now on with life.

Just in case you didn't notice, There are a few new blogs on my blog list.
Most of these are a collaborative effort between Soren and I.
Dear Me,
Letters between Trea, Warren, Topher, and Ranna over their summer break, and possibly longer.
The Coffee Shop
Where Universes Collide
Words In Our Head
Stories
imagine...
This is my blog, for my ideas about teaching and life

BTW, I just finished putting out bug and slug poison in my yard... hence the title

Wishing For My Own Moving Castle.. And Possibly A Wizard To Go With It

***Updated***

What a wonderful movie. What a wonderful book!
I had forgotten how much I love the book!
My good friend Soren brought something to my attention the other day.
she talked about comfort books.
got me to thinking about what mine were.

Howl's Moving Castle.
Where everything seems to be so real and different and hard and right and wonderful. Much like my life where sometimes I feel like Sophie. Sometimes like Howl, Michael, Lettie, Martha, The Scarecrow, Calcifer.... And everyone else.

Ella Enchanted.
Where she has everything worked out and it all seems to evolve on its own making her life turn upside down and right side up. Making her miserable and happy and in between until finally it starts to work out, but not in the way she had planned.

Percy Jackson Series.
Because Percy is not perfect, he has his faults and he has his friends and he pushes through, finding a way to work out his problems even when everything seems hopeless.

Sabriel.
Where she is shoved into a world she knows nothing about and she works through it making the world work with her.

Elantris.
Everything is worked out for them.
It even will be pleasant.
Then everything goes wrong.
But they don't despair.
they stand strong and become examples  for the people around them.
And as they become strong, giving and giving to others, they gain the things they wanted all along.

The Goose Girl.
She has a life that she is not comfortable with but through the process of many many hard trials she finds the life, courage, and love she always dreamed of.

thrice, three, san

Packing, Packing, Packing!
I love it when boxes are already packed and we only need to stack them in the garage!
"they're in the Gar-ra-ge!" hehe love the movie

Sherlock! What an amazing show! Only three episodes right now, watch it! Watch it! watch it!
there is not a new Young Justice yet. *sigh*
I love the wind, running, ice cream, sleeping, Percy Jackson, The Lost Hero (Son of Neptune this fall!), Harry Potter (which is going to end... again!), my family, my friends, my life, and ... pretty much everything!

I love Percy Jackson.

And I love Jason Grace.

Pretty much anything Percy I love. 

Have you read any of the 5 Percy Jackson and the Olympian books? Or the Hero's of Olympus (right now there is only one)?

If not.... What are you reading this for!? Go read them now!

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Moving...

On my own
with no one else beside me

the Lost Hero

Forbidden truth

Hidden meanings

confusion of feelings
of thoughts
of meanings

indecision.

FINALS ARE ALMOST DONE!

Well after this week I can finally start putting my teaching idea's on my Pre-Teaching blog! I have been waiting for this!
Also, I am going to start putting my pictures up on my tumbler, so you can look there. I have quite a few pictures that I have not put on to the computer. I should do that.
I can't think of much to put on here right now, other than FINALS ARE ALMOST DONE!

Uncertainty

What would I do if everything I knew, suddenly changed?
Would I step up and finally do everything I know I should be doing? would I sit down and cry?
There is a feeling in the pit of my stomach, a knot of anxiety. This is not at all the comfortable feeling of peace I wish for, but then again it is nothing at all like the fear and hatred I feel toward myself when I do something I know I should not. It is just fear.
"Be still, and know that I am God."  - Psalms 48:10
God always has a plan for me. He will watch out for me. I will believe on him. I will trust him.

It's a Wonderful World

There are many things to be grateful for and I would like to name a few of them.
*hem hem*
1. Finishing Homework.
What a wonderful feeling to finish something that has taken so long! I love turning it in(even if I don't like doing it) and then being done!
2. Having the Power go Out.
Today the power went out in all of my county. Two of my brothers were bored out of their minds and as soon as the power came back on, up the stairs they went to the PS3. But my youngest brother was outside, like he is, and would rather be every moment of his life. We rely... I rely so much on technology. What would I do if I didn't have electricity? I would be able to do many things, but others... like making bread or creating a shelter, felling tree's (ok, I probably wouldn't have to do those things, but hey! you never know!) I think our society has forgotten what is is like to rely on the land for survival, and I do not think this is a good thing.
3. Friends
What a fantabulistic invention! Who knew we would need people to get us through Stats? or to come over on a whim just to talk or hang out? Oh right! That would be Heavenly Father! Which leads me to my next grateful comment....
4. The Gospel of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
I am so glad I know that I will be able to live with my family forever in the Celestial Kingdom with my Heavenly Father, and my brother Jesus. I am so grateful to know that, when I find him, I will be able to be sealed to my Husband for time and all eternity. I am grateful to know that death is not the end. I will see my loved ones again.
But most of all... I am so incredibly grateful that God always has a plan for me. He knows what is best for me, and will always give me what will help me grow.

p.s. what book is my second line from?

"You gonna Wash your hands?" "No Cause I'm Evil."

My recent love. The Flash. 

Wish I could be Iris.... but unfortunately I am not. 

I was recently asked how my love life was going and if I  was interested in anyone. My reply?

"Superboy, Flash, Robin... No one real though."

My mom seems to think that I can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality. (personally fantasy is much more exciting....) Unfortunately I do the difference. I know very well. But I find it easier to cope with reality when I have fantasy to fall back on. 

The Flash... Oh how I love him.
I love this song as well. Though it does make me a little sad when I listen to it a bunch. (which does happen quite often)


I have an acquaintance who committed suicide. They were found by two members of their family. How horrible that would be. It is bad enough when death strikes on it's own, but when a person helps it along? I don't know what I would do if someone I knew really well did that... What would  you do?

Back to a happier subject... I bought myself a Flash shirt and wear it when I run. :) What a happy way to run!

Maybe I should spend more time in reality... I do have all summer to fantasize...

But no. that would be no fun at all!

Who would your favorite superhero (of the moment) be?

can you guess mine? (there is an alltime champ, and there is the hero of the moment. Kudos for those who get both!)

Weeks of Miracles

Well I guess I should elaborate on my dad's accident. Or rather incident, as there are no accidents.
He was on a motorcycle ride with his friends, they had been gone all day.
Outside of Delta, they were on a mountain road, curving up the mountain.
His friends were a curve ahead when the realized my dad was not with them.
They turned around to find my dad sprawled out on the ground.
He told them he had been turning left, following the curve of the road, when a huge gust of wind came from the left and lifted his bike up in the air, with him still on it.
He remembers seeing a mile marker before he hit the ground.
His right light hit the mile marker, fracturing both the bones in his lower leg. He broke 6 vertebra (nothing that will impare him though), and 3 ribs.
a week and a half in the hospital with two surgeries.
The thing about the surgeries is a miracle.
After the first surgery the doctor told us that he set the bone perfectly, but there was not enough skin on his leg to cover it. Without the skin the bone could not heal properly. So they were going to have to do at least 3 more surgeries.
But a miracle happened.
The second surgery was to inspect the wound without the swelling that was present during the first one, and to remove any more dead or dying skin on the wound. But as it turns out there was no more dead or dying skin on his leg, allowing the doctors to close the wounds (with blue thread and staples mind you).
So many small and large miracles have happened in my life in the last two weeks, I would be a fool to not see God's hand in all of them!
So, Thank you Heavenly Father. Thank you for saving my dad, for saving us money, for giving my family a chance to become closer together. Thank you for your eternal grace that allows me to repent and be forgiven of my sins.
I know that my Heavenly Father loves me, and that he is watching out for me and my family. I know that I can be with my family forever.
In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Update

Well, Dad is home now. No thanks to the rehab home he was in.
Homework is piling up, it is hard to get it done while being a mom. I think I underestimate my mom, and mothers everywhere! Especially mothers that are going to school! On the bright side, they all got to raise their kids from birth (unless they are adopted). Well, this is just a quick update.
Life is hard, but no one ever said it would be easy.
Castle is on.

Yes, The Impossible Really Does Happen

Friday my dad was in a motorcycle accident.
We thought we would be able to take him home the next day.
As it turned out he would have to stay in the hospital for at least 2 weeks with multiple surgeries.
Then he went into a surgery on Monday and as it turned out he had plenty of skin to cover his bone! Which is the entire reason he would have had to stay in the hospital, cause he didn't have enough skin on his leg!
Heavenly Father really is looking out for us. He is so wonderful, giving us only as much as we can handle, and then sometimes even taking that away!
I would like to thank everyone one who prayed for my family and who has helped us get through this tough time. We are not out of it yet, but we can see a light at the end of the tunnel.

My World, Where the Impossible Happens Every Day

In your world, an extraordinary person would be someone like Albert Einstein. An extraordinary person in my world would be Superman.
There is a world, mingling with the world you know, where extra-un-ordinary people are ordinary. Where the impossible happens everyday.
A few people from my world have seen fit to give their live stories, but you would never know it. Their biographies were published as comic books. Partially because those brave few would not reveal our entire race without the entire race's approval. And partially because the comic books publishers were the only ones who believed, or maybe they were just greedy and needed a new story.
Whatever the reason, you have for sure heard of some on my fellow countrymen. Superman, Batman, The Flash,  Spider-man, The Hulk. Each of these men (there are also women) are the elite of our society. They are our leaders, the ones we look up to. And we are not all like them.
We have problems just like you.

I grew up in the middle of no where, outside of any town or village. There was no one living within 30 miles of us, and that is how we liked it. My grandparent's raised me, as my parents were superhero's of great consequence and could not raise me the way they wished. Grandma and Grandpa (also semi-famous superhero's) did not want anyone stumbling on us accidentally.
My powers manifested themselves very early. Normally around 13 years powers reveal themselves. I gained my first power at the age of 4.

(c) By Me. Do NOT use without permission.

Note to Self: Don't Drive Alone on an Unknown Road in the Dark After Watching A Scary Movie!

It is amazing the feeling that comes from suddenly realizing "hey, I know this song!"

Red Riding Hood, while a good movie, (other than the scenes that ARE NOT meant to be shown to public) was SCARY! Man, There is a reason I do not watch scary movies, and that is why!

It is time to take charge of my life. Seeing as God gave it to me so that I could make something out of it, not just pretend that I don't have to do anything.

First things first, I need to take at least 5 tests.  I need to plan for those and work them out. Study them and ace them.

Then I need to start making some more friends, though I am not sure how to go about doing that. I have never had to try to make friends before, it just sort of happened. 

Well, better late than never. 

Life is scary. 

There is not much to do about it.

Just live it and do the best I can.

All the While trying to do better. 

Every angle tries to pull me down.
One angle helps me back up.

Even when I cling to a hand, 

another grabs my wrist.

I shake it off, but not always...

I squirm away from darkness,

I reach up for the light.

SCUM

I love when I get my homework done. It feels so amazing.
It is much easier to do my homework when I actually have fun doing it, such as when it is art!
Now I have the rest of the day to do what ever I want. But I still have things I should do, like chores, piano, vacuum my room, maybe even eat the rest of my birthday cake....mmmmmmmm.
Well, nothing new to report. Just cousins coming over. I love cousins. And their friends.
And I love Scum! Such a fun game! Here's how to play!
Just enjoy. Ok? enjoy

A Lush, Green Mind

"The consequences of industrialization and growth."
In I am Number Four he talks about how his planet was once struggling like earth is now.
My mother keeps telling me I am at a turning point, I am trying to make it through as the blast doors are closing around me.
The world is at a turning point.

Christ will come and the earth will be born again.

I can be born again each time I try again, each Sunday when I take the sacrament.
I can work harder at my studies, work to become better in the aspects of my life where I am lacking.
Change is never easy, never.
Why can't it be easier?
Because we have set patterns that we like, that we stick to, and in order to break those patterns... we have to do something we are uncomfortable. Something I have never done before.
It is scary to change. It is scary to do something new
But it is also exciting.
What is it about doing something new, the first day of school, Christmas, starting a new job, going to a new place, that is so exhilarating?
Maybe it is the notion that I am doing something new, I am starting fresh, I am starting clean.
I can do better here than I have done before.
and I can.