McDonallds and Wal*Mart are taking over the world.

I do not like Jewlery stores.

One say to size a ring will cost this much, the next says it will cost $200 more, and the last says it will only cost $30. Make up your minds!

Some say "there is not way we could add another band onto you ring that looks just like the one you already have", another says "oh yeah that will be easy!", and yet another says "we can't curve a new band like they did 25 years ago when they couldn't use a laser or machine to do it, but we can give you one that is already curved... only it is not called a curved band, make sure you call it a contor band."

goodness gracious sakes alive!

If you want slow service or people pretending that they know what they are doing but they don't really, then go to a jewelry store. You will get it, and if you don't, you will get outrageous prices!

Well, yesterday we spent half the day in the stupid jewelry stores and the other half shopping. Which was the part I didn't mind. i got two super cute shirts and new pair of pants. But sadly I didn't find any shoes that I was in love with. Oh well. We are going to go shopping again so we can get first pick of the clothes Ross puts out. 9 am. be there.

I have a confession.

I... I like.... Ilikehannahmontana.

There I said it. phew. I nearly died!

I LOVE avatar!

i went to three McDonalds yesterday so I could find the toy I wanted. :D

Such an amazing movie! I don't know what I would do if I hadn't see it!

Happy Happy birthday from me to you!.... without the birth!

I am HOME!

I LOVE home!

"I love john... I hate John!" - emma

I have some pretty big decisions to make while I am here. I think I know what I am going to do, but I still need to pray and fast about it. Just to make sure it is the right thing.

I love my friends!

Renee, Soren, Courtney.... What would I do without them!?

Courtney was so funny today! She got her wisdom teeth out and was laughing all the way with for no reason!

Renee is coming over tonight, I don't know what we are going to do. But I am excited!

Soren is freakin' grounded! And if she does not do her homework I am going to go to her house and stand over her with a knife until it is done! Though she may enjoy that.. Maybe I will just threaten to play it's a small world after all over and over til it is done... good plan.

I am getting my drawing books! I am super excited!

I got Courtney and Soren's presents the other day and I am SOOOOOOOOO excited to give them to them! oh man, I can't even describe how excited I am!

i love my mom. She is so spastic sometimes, but she is amazing all the same.

My family is amazing.

And I feel so HAPPY!

Home

Well... Life is better. much better.
Finished my Project. Now I am just waiting for my mother to proof read it.
I hope she does. I am going to read it again too...
I have been dreading doing that project. I don't know why. Because I knew it was going to be as easy as it was. But I procastinated until it was almost too late. Procastination is not a good thing.
Never put off to tomorrow what could be done today.
I get to go home in one week.
5 days left of work.
2 classes left
3 finals
7 nights left
7 days
1,000's of feelings
1 desire

Help... anyone?...anyone.

Everyone always told her she looked 12. She did not really mind that much. She knew she was not. She did not think like a 12 year old or act like a 12 year old. but she did look like one. Now she cared. She looked 10. There was nothing she could do about it. And it made her sad. What was she supposed to do? just go along, pretending that everything was ok? Well everything was not ok. She wanted to be noticed. She did not want to be glanced over and then forgotten. Why would no one notice her?

She sat at her computer in the airport. People ignored her. Even the old lady who talked to her ignored her. No one wanted to talk to a 10 year old. What could she possibly have to say that was interesting?

Their eyes slid over her seat. Not bothering to look at the roll, noticing that she was on there. They just ignored her. Not even bothering to check.

She walked with her head down, her arms folded across her chest. Trying to not look as sad as she felt. Each and every person's eyes moved right past her. None of them noticing the little girl who looked so out of place.

She dropped a book on her toe. That did it. The tears cascaded down her face as she reached to pick it up. No one was there to help. No one. Everyone was passing. She was just a little girl who did not belong there. Why would they help her?

He picked the book up. But the girl did not notice. She was on the ground with her face in her hands, crying. She touched her arm and she looked up, startled.

He grabbed a hold of her arm helping her up and handing her her book.

Now that he really looked at her she was not as little as he thought. Her face looked like a child, and her braces made her look even younger. But her eyes. her eyes were far older than that of a child. Even than those of an adult. She seemed to be very wise, just trapped behind her face, that no one could seem to look past.

Easy won't be part of the equation

I can SEE!!!!

I got my new phone so I can actually see the screen without having to use a flashlight! trust me, it looked funny to watch me read what was on my phone with the flashlight.

I love writing stories. They are so amazing! I don't know what I would do if I could not write stories!

My roommates are amazing, I don't know what else to say on that count.

I have been doing a lot of things with Mike lately. I really like spending time with him. Last night we went to a Logan Winds concert. It was amazing! I love listening to instruments play, especially when they are really good.

Kagami and Yuuto are amazing...

this is my favorite picture that I have found of them. It is not originally them, but it looks like them so it works.

"HEHE! I'll go get my ball!" - Rhino

"ring ring. Who is it? Destiny? I've been expecting your call!" - Rhino.

Can I just say that bolt is AMAZING!

wonderful start to the week

And so the beginning of another week...

Last night I woke up a bunch of times, and could not fall back asleep!

9:30 my roommates decided to sing outside of my door.

10 I get back to sleep.

12:30 Soren text me.

1 I get back to sleep.

3:30 my alarm goes off for me to get up for work. Then I wonder why on earth I have it set and what I could possibly be getting up this early for. So I sit up and turn the alarm off then realize that today is monday and I need to go to work in a half hour. So I jump off of my bed and OUCH my ankle hurts.

And So I ignore it and keep walking on but work pretty slow because of it.

I think I may go to the doctor to have him look at it today. maybe not.

But I will get an ace bandage.

Then my phone decided to not work, even though it has been doing that ALL weekend. So Darby is taking me to the verizon store so I can get it fixed or just get a more durable phone... Which ever is cheeper.

Stupid... Stupid....Stupid

I am so confused.

"Yes Noodles, Don't Noodles..."

Maybe I should just sleep on it.

Finish reading my 4 chapters and sleep.

Study, do math, sleep.

sleep.

Sleep.

Sleep.

That is what I need but I can't seem to get enough of it!

Why can't I get enough sleep!?

Even when I take naps I seem to wake up more tired then before!

I don't want to think about so many things.

I just want to sleep.

Read.

Draw. But i want my pictures to turn out right.

Play the piano.

Play my flute.

I want to be good.

I want to teach.

I want to serve.

I want to go to institute.

I want to not be tired!

When We're Apart

Kagami and Yuuto

Mystery Men

I like dressing nicely. I do not like sitting in front of the tv all day.

Guess what I did today... it was bad.

I didn't wake up. I start work at 4 am. I was smart and set my alarm for 3 pm. I woke up at 6:30 and realized what I had done. smart one, Eaven.

I am reading Wuthering Heights. So far it is pretty good, but I am only on chapter 4.

I really hope I don't lose my job, because yesterday I did not go because I did not feel good.

It really is to early. I need to find another job. very badly. I can't wake up that early.

I wish I had enough money that I could just not work. I should try to get more money over the summer this year.

I wish the party on friday was not just relief society. I wish boys could come too.. because then I would invite a certain someone... :D I will give you a hint, it starts with a M.

Millie makes me laugh. She scolds me for not coming to ask her a question ( I texted it) when she is just in the other room, but she just texted me back and did not come tell me either. hehe. face.

I wrote an amazing beginning to a story. It is just a rough draft. So it is not as good as it could be, but still it is pretty good!

Henry pulled on Christien's laces, making them tight. She thanked him and proceeded to put on her riding slacks and boots, then helped him with his hair, which was never satisfactory to her when he did it.

He pulled her close to him and kissed her, then looked into her eyes. "Are you scared?"

"How could I be scared when I am with you?" she asked.

The clock tolled midnight. They grabbed the rest of their things and headed out the door. They were almost to the stables when Henry stopped.

"I forgot my sword!" he gasped.

"Well, lets go get it!"

"No, you get the horses ready, and I'll be back down in a minute."

"Don't be long!" they kissed again and she went to the horses and he ran up to their room. His sword was sittin gon his bed. He picked it up and buckled it on.

He opened the door to leave but stepped back. The queen, his mother in law was standing against the doorframe in her nightgown.

"You weren't thinking of leaving, were you?"

Henry clenched his fists at his sides.

"Yes, as a matter of fact we were going to do the jobs you are to blind to see." He pushed past her into the hall.

" I would not leave if I were you."

He sighed and turned around. "What are you going to do about it, Gurtrude?"

Christien ran up the stairs, "Henry! What is taking you so long?" she half whispered.

The queen smiled evily when she heard her daughter and snapped her fingers.

Guards sprang from the shadows grabbing Christien's arms and shoving her to the ground.

"Christien!" Henry jumped to help her but a guard tugged her head up by her hair and shoved a knife next to her throat.

"I would not do that if I were you," the queen said, walking in a circle around the spot he had stopped.

Christien and Henry kept eye contact, scanning each other, making sure the other was going to be alright. She had tears running down her face. Henry longed to whip them from her cheeks and hold her until she felt safe, but if he moved she would die.

"What do you want?" he said through gritted teeth, not trying to hide the hatred in his voice.

"My dear boy, I am the queen and will get what I want, and what I want is for you to let me run my kingdom, and not take my daughter away from me!"

Henry fumed, "You want me to let people suffer because you are to lazy to do anything? You want me to just stay in this castle for the rest of my life?"

The queen tisked, "Now now, son, I never said you had to stay here. Just my christien."

"She is my wife! I will not leave her!"

The queen walked up to his face. "You are under arrest for attempting to sabotage my rule, kidnapping the princess, and undermining my authority." she snapped her fingers again and the guards let chrstien go and grabbed Henry, punching him in the stomach. He doubled over grunting.

"Henry!" christien crawled over to him, holding his face. The guards pushed her away, she landed on the ground. They stood Henry up, and dragged him away to the dungeons.

He looked at Christien. She was kneeling on the floor reaching for him. they rounded a corner and he could not see her anymore.

Christien slumped to the floor crying into the cold stone. Her mother knelt down quietly next to her, drapping her arm over Christiens rounded back.

"Christien darling, it will be ok. He was not good for you anyw--"

Christien sat up shoving the queen's arm off of her, "Don't touch me, witch." she snarled. She stood and started walking away.

"Darling, you are confused! He was going to--"

"He was going to do nothing that was illegal! Henry is 10 times the ruler you could ever be!" She stalked toward her mother shaking a finger, stopping right in front of her. "You let him out right now."

"Or what?" the queen said, clamly looking into her daughter's eyes.

Christien gritted her teeth, "Or I will get him out myself and we will expose you for the witch you are."

The queen smiled, "My dear, you are mentaly exhaughsted. you will be confined to your room, guarded at all times."

Guards surrounded her. She pushed out of their way lunging at her mother. The guards grabbed her dragging her to her room.

"I hope you rot in hell!" She screamed as they pulled her away.

The queen sat on a chair and called the butler, "I would like to make an announcment to the people."

What do you think?

I love it. I don't know how it is going to end, but it is going to be awesome! I think the queen is going to be delusional and crazy, all at the same time.

Kinda like the secret window, only not like that. I saw that the other day, good movie! And one of M's favorites!

Is it obvious who I am talking about? I guess to some people it would be, but to others... maybe not.

I am going to watch V for Vendetta tomorrow with him. Darby is going to come too, and I think he invited some people. I feel like I should invite someone else, but I don't know who. I could invite Taylor... or maybe Darby would like it if I invited J--. I could do that.

Next semester I need to have my classes all together. I don't like have a 3 hour break in between my classes, it just makes me less likely to go to them!

Bombarded by Amazingness

I think that sometimes we make ourselves miserable.

I am sick, right? And so what do I do? I stay up and watch movies that I have already seen 100 times! yeah smart I know!

I need to vacuum slower in the mornings. Today I was done with everything I was supposed to do around 7... I get to leave at the earliest 7:30. So I muddled around trying to find something to do. that was great, let me tell ya.

on the bright side, I found my colored pencils!

YAY! So Know I have some crappy ones that I pretend are amazing and some amazing ones that look... not to amazing, but actually are!

And I know my christmas present!!!! COLORED PENCILS! or art supplies.. take you pic. The expensive kind from art stores! I am so entirely to excited! I can't wait for christmas! Even if I will be miserable... ( I am getting my wisdom teeth out at christmas)

Soren, I miss you. I think that next time I come home ( probablly thanksgiving....) we should have a sleep over. Because that was awesome! And we totally came up with amazing idea's! That is what happens when you lay down and relax.. Your brain is bombarded by amazingness!

Time for Bed

I am way tired.

I don't want to go to bed.

My family came today, it was so amazing!

I love my family.

I get to go home on wednesday... this is good!

I get my hair done on friday!

"dare you to move" switchfoot

amazing song

I am really happy I have a job, I just really wish it was not so early.

It would be amazing if it were even at 6.... that would be lovely.

and if we started at 4 when we are supposed to show up we could be done by 7 and we could all go home and sleep some more. I don't know why we don't just start sooner.

I really wish that I could just be able to sleep as much as I want. right now, I just want to sleep without changing or brushing my teeth or reading my scriptures, or climbing onto my bed, or getting under my covers. I just wish that I could fall asleep when I thought it. I just want to sleep....

stupid stress and lack of sleep

I think I am sick.

My throat hurts, I am so tired and I feel like I should drop dead.

I have a job... from 4 am to 8 am monday through friday.

SO EARLY. just to let you know.

I have never been so glad for friday.

I was just fine this morning and yesterday morning, but then around 7:30 my throat started hurting.

I think I have strep.

I tried to go to the doctors office today, but they said I needed an appointment.

So I made one for tomorrow at 11:30. I hope that I don't have strep. I don't want it. I just want to be better.

I don't want to be sick....

well.. I should go to bed, I need extra sleep I guess.

Joy

Do you know what happens when you decide that you can wait, that your life right now is amazing and does not need to be as different as you thought?

You can't fall asleep at night, because you are so excited for tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be a new day because you have decided to be content with your lot in life, because you have a new challenge to face, because even though you still want it, it is not at the top of your list anymore, it has a more convenient place toward the middle of your list, just waiting, patiently, for the proper time in your life.

This feeling of contentment, happiness, joy, and love, is the best feeling in the world. Nearly perfect, the only thing that could make it better would be being with my family right now. but I will have to settle with thinking about them.

This world is such a beautiful place. I keep getting distracted by the leaves on the trees, the sound of the wind struggling to push the trees to the ground. The cloudy sky seems more mysterious and majestic, like it is hiding a secret and with each fall of rain it reveals a clue as to what that secret is.

Why is it that people cannot believe there is a God when the evidence is everywhere, all around them! Every way I look I see something that God made, something he created. Everything bears witness of him and his great plan, yet some people stubbornly refuse to see that and try to pretend that they can just go on with their lives without help. I don't know how they do it, I can barely get through the morning without asking him for help in something.

Oh! So That's What a Blinker Looks Like! - Millie

Does distance really make the heart grow fonder?

or does it just make the heart forget the things it does not like?

The thing is, I have never had anything I did like about .J.

I think I just got scared. I didn't really every stop liking him.

But last night... I had a dream. I know kind of silly, but still.

In my dream:

The Car drove along at a constant speed, down the straight road. There was no need for him to look at the road. He knew where he was going.

A Friend sat in the back seat, looking out the window.

I looked down at my hands. I wished that I could hold his. But he is not here yet, he was still serving his mission.

I put my hand close to his, but where he could not reach it. In between my seat and the arm rest between our seat.

He glanced down at my hand, then smiled and looked back at the road.

"You know I can't hold your hand right now." he said.

I smiled at him, kind of sadly, but still happy, because he would be back soon.

He took his eyes from the road and looked at me.

After a few moments he said, "I love you."

I put my head into my hands, feeling the tears come.

I didn't say I loved him. I had never even told him that I liked him, yet he still loved me.

He never took his eyes off of me, but silently took my hand. I look up at him, the love obvious in my eyes.

My friend suddenly pulled himself forward between the seats,

"Did you know that .J. is home now?" he said cheerily before sitting back in his seat and looked out the window again.

I beamed, and happily looked at .J. He looked at me and I whispered...

Then the dream changed, and I don't remember what it changed too. something about a broom and a wooden leg.

Do you think dreams can tell us things? I think so, but we have to ask what.

Some dreams are just that, dreams and have no real meaning.

But some are more. Some are meant for you to understand something, to give you hints.

maybe this is a hint for me. maybe it was just a dream.

or maybe...

"A dream is a wish your heart makes, when it's fast asleep. In dreams you lose your heartaches, Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams and someday, your rainbow will come smiling thru. No Matter how your heart is grieving If You keep on believing The Dream that Wish Will come True."

"I know you! I walked with you once upon a dream! I know you, the gleem in your eyes is so familiar a gleem! And I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem! But If I know you, I know what you'll do, you'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream."

orange jacket

this week is turning out to be a week of laziness!

I am just trying to make it to thursday, when I get to go home... I don't know If I can make it... well I can I just wish it was thursday already.

It is SO COLD!

Why is it so cold?

oh my goodness, it should be warmer.

But the good thing is I got to wear my new orange wool jacket! yay!

Awesomeess!

Let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings

Now I'm Heels over Head,

I'm hangin upside down

I don't know which way is up.

I don't know which way is down.

Confusion swirls, clouding the way.

my hands flail uselessly

Reaching for the holds that have receded.

Falling into the darkness, watching the light fade away.

shaking wakes me from my stupor

then a pinprick of light blinds me

I see a shape entering the light,

a flowing breeze following

breaking the stagnate air

Blowing fresh freedom into my face

A hand comes from the light,

reaching for me, not quite reaching.

The chains hold me down, pulling me tighter

I struggle, but the darkness has its grip

a sword, picking it up, I hit the chains.

They relinquish then attack, all in the same blink

again and again, I hit, relinquish, attack.

I hit, and pull my arm out reaching for the hand

help me, I'm stuck

our fingertips brush, then the chains pull me down again

both hands are free, I try to push out

they crush my legs, I reach again

reaching, reaching, touching, brushing

not close enough.

The light is closing, I won't make it!

the hand is being pulled back into the light

he can't stay here in the darkness long,

but then... I am not darkness, I am light.

I forgot

light, cracks of light appear on my skin,

breaking the dark crust appart

like the sun to dry dirt

the chains receed from the light coming from me

the light is from me

I am strong enough to fight off this darkness

I just needed a reminder

my sword turns to gold, shining, burning,

slicing through the air connecting with the darkness of chains

they disintegrate, falling into the pit

I reach up, unhindered, gasping his hand, our light bursting

as we met, glowing brighter than possible alone

We light the darkness

freeing others from their chains, their lights bursting from their skin

Grasping hands, making a chain, something to hold

we traverse the darkness together, entering the light

collapsing to the ground, our hands still entertwined

rest at last.

even when everything is going well, something is still going wrong.

Soren, I miss you too. Will you do me a favor?

Sit with someone new tomorrow.

I know it is scary, I know it is not what you do.

But please, look around and find someone you think looks interesting, or maybe you know just a little bit, and sit with them. you don't have to talk to them, you don't have to pretend to like them or anything, but listen to their conversation, answer when you are asked a question. heck, you could even say something on your own. If you don't like sitting alone, do something about it. I know you can, you just have to try, reach for the light and try.

slowly, but surely, I am reaching higher. gaining new friends, at the rate I am going now... one a month. unless it is like physics and i am going one meter per second per second. Then it would be one friend per week per week.... so maybe I will actually get to be asked to homecoming.... but maybe not.

Soren, you are so lucky. Remember that.

Titanic Tip and Daring Dash

I love the Little Mermaid.

Ballroom tryouts are on friday, I am so excited, and worried. But more excited. I hope the $300 covers new shoes... the ones I have now are kind of dead.

I am watching the little mermaid 2. then we are going to watch ariels beginning. ThenI think I want to watch the original.

I really want Soren to text me... GA!

Well... I can't think of much to talk about.

I GET TO GO HOME ON FRIDAY!

I miss my Mommy.

It is hard to be in a new place.

It is hard to not have close friends.

It is hard to have to do everything new.

It is hard to have to try new things.

It is hard to change.

And it is SUPER hard to do all of those things ALL AT THE SAME TIME!

I need a job, I don't know how to get one.

I need someone to dance with, I don't know who.

I miss my friends, I need some up here.

I miss my family, and what I am missing with them.

I miss having my own room, and a place to cry.

I miss reading books in a matter of hours because I have nothing else to do.

I miss talking with my mom until all hours of the night.

I miss having a phone on which I can text with one hand.

I miss my bed.

I miss cornbags.

I miss the other three weeks in this month.

I miss the Man I have not met yet in this life.

I miss my couch, and the support it offers.

I miss air conditioning.

I miss not having to worry about money.

I miss...

Don't Really Do That

This is what I did in my ElEd 1010 class. Sorry it is a little skewed, my paper would not hold still. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bored! I hate watching TV I HATE sitting there doing nothing, and I don't know what to do! GAG ME! jk don't really do that.

There are many paths to tread

I just finished my very first math assignmet of college.

You know it has been nearly... 3 years since I actually finished a math assignment. And you know what?

It actually feels pretty good... weird I know but still, I like the feeling of finishing something hard. I know my math is not that hard to you guys, but to me, it is not like pull your hair our hard, but I actually had to think.

Last night I had my ElEd 1010 class. oh man. I need to find something to make that class more interesting. I drew a picture of myself on there... I will post it on here later, as I don't have it with me right now. But the picture actually kind of looks like me! I also drew pretties around the letters P.E. and drew some designs on the sides of my paper... I was a little bored. I don't want to be bored now!

I need to start dancing, I need to dance alot. I think I will do that on tuesday. If I don't, I will SUCK at the auditions. I know not a pretty word, but I will. So I need to practice.

Well I am done procastinating my SUPER long chapter that I need to read.

College Life

I never thought I would be one of the college students who stayed up late everynight....

So far I am not living up to my expectaitions. I have not gone to bed before 11 once... well I did once 10:30.

But it has been so much fun!

Actual classes start tomorrow and I am so excited to have things to do! I just hope that I can have enough time to do everything else!

Oh and I think I have an institute class tomorrow that I need to get up early for... Maybe I should check that!

Soren, when does school start and are you so excited?!

There is a family day, for the ward, and I think for the university also but it is when your family comes up and gets to meet your bishop and such. And the weekend after next is labor day... I could come back then but I have not decided if I want to or not, and I would need to find a ride, or have my parents come and get me... and then I would have to bring my billow and blanket and such because there is not on my bed right now.

I am so tired, I should go take a quick nap! That seems like a marvelous idea!

Mal

So I made up a character, her name is Mal. As in Malicious. Mal, the latin word for Wrongful, because what the humans did in pushing creatures from the earth was wrong. She is from this planet, but parts unknown in the deapths of the sea, below the scanners, below the radar, below the crushing depth of millions of tons of water pounding on the rocks. A place where things have sought refuge and tranquility. Dragons, Unicorns, magicans, Mermaids. All have found peace below the world.

Mal was born of a mermaid and magician, having no fin, but covered in scales. Slim transparent gills cover the sides of her neck, allowing her to transform water to oxygen,and visa versa, and breath beneath the water. Being part magic, she has magical properties. Attracting strange things subconsiously, walking on air, and the ability to learn new skills with disturbing speed and accuracy.
Her comrad in arms is a dragon named Slash, for the scar that runs from the left side of his underbelly to his right wing, and for his razer like claws that can cut through solid metal in a matter of seconds.

Not having time for games, Mal speaks her mind, exactly what she wants to say. Matter of Fact. No fiction involved. She can lie, and often does, but only to protect her world and herself. The truth is a tool, a sacred responsiblity given to her to use to protect and destroy.

Using her gifts, she has been assigned as gatekeeper of the relm. Protecting it from the sunwalkers, preventing all from knowledge of it's presence. Day and night she stands sentinal, never leaving her post.

That is the character I made up to go with Soren's Fade. Soren I have an AMAZING idea as to how they could meet and such and why they are together and we should have this not be an x-men thing but just our own thing!

I'll Lengthen my Stride

Well I rode the bus today and went to wal-mart with Darby today. It was great. WE got some yummy ice cream.

I registered for my institute classes. And I am really excited for classes to startnext week.

I got all of my books today. only bad this is my math book comes with 2 cd's and Alfonzo Richard does not have a cd drive. :'(

Want to hear an AMAZING poem that I have had on my coark board for a while?

While others may tire

or quit in despair,

Or feel as if failure

is to hard to bear--

I will keep going,

Put failures aside,

If I can't keep up

Then I'll lengthen my stride.

I've made up my mind,

Set my sight on a quest,

Though many have tried,

Few gave it thier best.

Trying my hardest

Is what makes me great,

Desire and determination,

Not fortune and fate.

-Judy Beck

Is that not amazing?

Home Sweet Home

Well I am moved in now. My family is gone. I am here with my roommate. Sounds good! All of my stuff is put away... except for my bathroom stuff. It is all on a shelf that is way WAY messy!

I am exhauseted. It is hard work moving! Now I just have to remember where I put everything!!!!

Soren I hung your picture today. It looks amazing! For a while I thought Iw ould not have enough space for everything, but I do. Barely. I have 33 pairs of shoes. numerous pants and lots of options to go with them! And I was thinking I had nothing to wear! I have alot to wear. My closet is squished! but I still have room for 4 more shoes!

I went shopping with my mom for food. And I snapped at her a few times to many. try one. I felt bad for it.

anyway, Darby and I are both just sitting here on our compys enjoying the silence.

Sometimes people leave out the important stuff

"Heart don't fail me now, Courage don't desert me, Don't turn back now that we're here! People always say, Life is full of choices, No one ever mentions Fear. And how the world can seems so vast! On a Journey..."

Byron just asked me if I was ready for going away to college. I am leaving tomorrow. I told him "I will be ready next week."

My nana says it will be better when I know what to expect. Probablly. But right now I am FREAKED!

And this little piggy left home

Tomorrow.

One Day.

End.

Death.

Never the same.

Hard.

Change

~

Beginning.

Change.

New.

Fun.

Exciting.

Adventure.

Friends.

Life.

Start.

"Due time."

Joy.

Tomorrow I leave for College. In one Day I leave for college. Tomorrow is the end of the life I know. Tomorrow is the death of the life I have now. Never again will my life be the same. Tomorrow my life become harder than ever. Tomorrow I have to change.

~

Tomorrow is the beginning of the rest of my life. Tomorrow I enter a change for the better. Tomorrow I start something new. Tomorrow I will have fun. Tomorrow Will be exciting. Tomorrow is new adventure, just waiting for me to step ont he path so it can whisk me away. Tomorrow I meet new friends. Tomorrow I enter the rest of my life. Tomorrow I start the next step to exaltation. Tomorrow "Due Time" is closer. Tomorrow will be full of Joy.

The goods and the bads all lined up for me to see. The goods are longer than the bads. That is a sign.

Tomorrow I leave for school. my family is coming up with me. On sunday I was scared out of my mind. I still am. But now I am more excited than scared. I am sure I will be scared the first few nights. But that is why I am bringing my Banket, Brownie, and my Father in Heaven. With them I am always safe.

Now I am packing. Kind of a daunting task. I can't imagine what is like to move a whole house. Just my bedroom(without taking everything) is hard!

Soren, Thanks. You are amazing! Remember every friday night, we call! The time may vary but still!

Anyone else that reads, good luck with your lives!

Eclipse aka Natalie Astral

Natalie stood with her arms outstretched. Soaking in the sunlight. she could feel each breeze disrupt the light, hear each blade of grass blocking the waves of light. She let the light flow into her, and felt herself change into what she held most dear, the sunlight.

Something moved the light. A car. 3 people stepped out of it. She opened her eyes and the connection broke, she became flesh and blood once again.

She smiled as she turned around. "Hello, what are you doing here?"

"Natalie, my name is Professor Charles Xavier." Said the bald man in a wheelchair.

"Hello Professor Xavier, how do you know my name?" Natalie already knew all about them, the light had told her. The one in the glasses was Scott Summers, sometimes Cyclops. He had optic blasts that came from his eyes and he could not control it. The girl with red hair was named Jean Grey, she had telekinesis and telepathy. Professor Xavier was a very strong telepath who took it upon himself to teach mutants how to use their powers.

"I, like you, have special abilitys. I can read minds." He sat back in his chair, his fingers laced together.

"Yes, I already knew that, but I was under the impression that you did not enter someone's head unless you had permission."

"Oh, well when I scan for new mutants it brings up a name along with a picture of the person using a power, so I did not really enter your head to get your name."

Natalie tilted her head slightly, indicating it was alright.

"Anyway, Natalie, I would like to invite you to come to my school and learn how to more fully use your power. Unfortunatly, Cerebro does not let me know your power, if you could be so kind as to tell me what it is."

She smiled again. "Professor, I do not need training for my power. I have mastered it. But it does not belong to me, I belong to it, remember that. I would like to come and stay in your school, thank you for inviting me. As for my power. Light."

"Light?" He asked clearly confused.

"Yes, light. Anything Light can do, I can do. I can even do things light cannot do, but that is only because I can shape it." To emphasize her point she created a bird in her hand, a phoenix, out of light.

"Woah." Scott said.

"What exactly can light do?" The professer questioned.

"I can become light, travel with light, see with light, hear with light. Everytime you move, you disrupt the light. I can see that, or more I can feel that. I can feel you speaking also, I do not need ears to hear. I can become darkness. I can create shadows. I can do many things, not all of which are pleasent."

The professor smiled at her. "Thank you for sharing this with me. I greatly appreciate it. Would you like to see the mansion where you will be living now?" He wheeled around toward the can that brought them.

"I would love too." She followed him. Scott helped the Professor into the car and Jean got in the drivers seat.

They drove off, leaving the feild behind them.

"What do you want with me?" *

Do you ever feel like Satan is just trying to get at you? Like he is trying so hard to get you to do something you should not do?

Yesterday I went to a viewing of my friends grandpa. The line to see him went around the building. President Monson, elder Bednar, and Elder Perry were there. I actually got to see elder Perry, he stood right next to me. He smiles so much, and is so happy. He even took the time to walk down the line of people and shake hands, and he greated each person as if he knew them. It made me feel so important.

I knew when I got to the viewing that I wanted to be like that. I want to be remebered for helping people, for making people's lives better, for being a positive influence.

All day yesterday, and for about 2 weeks before that I had been getting steadily more scared about College. but yesterday after I decided I wanted to be the best I can be, It all came to a peak. Everything came together and I was so scared I was shaking and on the verge of tears. I got a headache, got mad at my mom and dad, then as soon as I came home I broke down and just started sobbing. I was shaking, crying, and rocking back and forth. Just sitting in my closet trying to hold myself together.

I started praying. I told Heavely Father how scared I was, How I didn't know what I supposed to do, even how I wanted my pillow( it was missing.)

The amazing thing about Heavely Father is, he knows just what we need and when we need it. My mom found my pillow.

the night before I had read a talk in the ensign aobut gaining faith. Then last night I opened my ensign because I knew I needed to read it. I knew I needed guidence and so I opened it to the talk I was going to read. "Faith in adversity" It was called.

"it's nice not to be so alone."

"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (John 14:27)

that is a scripture he used in the talk.

Now in some stories this would be the turning point, everything is going to get better now. Not in mine.

I woke up this morning and almost started crying again. I read my book of mormon and was disgusted at the nephites and lamanites, they were wicked, and so were cursed with a famine, then they repented and it was taken away. just 4 years later they did the same things that made them stupid in the first place. this happens so many times in the book of mormon, and in real life. It is called the pride cycle.

then I turned on my computer and watched x-men evolution. I wanted to escape. I wanted to not think about anything else. But that is not what I got. I could feel myself sinking lower and lower. I knew that I could not stay this way all day. So I got up and got in some grungy clothes and walked around for a minute. Then I went back to my room and wached some more. When I finally decided enough was enough, my dad came in.

"Are you depressed?"

"Yes"

he looked kind of shocked that I would say it like that. "Well pull yourself out of it."

I smiled a little bitt." That is just what I was going to do."

So I turned on "Bet on It" From High School Musical 2 and listened too it as I excersized. I worked myself hard, it felt so good. putting my frustration out on the excersizes, doing the most I could do, pushing myself.

I got up and was going to start doing chores, but when I saw myself in the mirror, I realized I needed to feel good too, so I took a long shower and then picked out an amazing outfit.

I think in order to feel goood, you have to look good also.

God does not want us to be sloppy all the time. He wants us to be happy and to feel good. We don't have to dress like the world to feel happy. Most of the time that just makes me feel miserable. Be modest, and beautiful.

"Be your own kind of beautiful."

*-Wolverine, X-men

Working on a Ranch Can be Very Exciting --- At Least When You Imagine It To Be

She walked along the fence line, puffing up the hill, knowing she only had one mile left, and she was getting paid. One more mile, one more mile. The dogs bounded ahead, pausing to see if she was still coming then continuing on once again.

Something snapped. The girl whipped around, pausing her ipod. She thought she saw something move between the trees high up the hill, but then she was kind of jumpy right now, not to mention tired. She kept moving.

132 steps later she saw something out of the corner of her eye. She turned to look, but it was gone. Wierd.

She caught up with the dogs who had stopped to rest under a tree. She wished she could stop but she had to drive home and get to a doctors apointment by 2:30. The dogs got up and bounded ahead again, leaving her alone.

This time the snap was right behind her. She turned around so fast she fell to the ground.

"Oh!" She exclaimed as she landed on her behind. When she looked up there was a man standing there. He looked about 25, sandy brown hair, maybe 6'1'' and very dirty.

He extended his hand to help her, she took it. He smiled at her but did not say anything.

"Hi, my name is Eaven." she said hesitantly. "Have you been following me?" He only nodded.

"What is your name?"

He just stood there.

"Can you talk?"

He nodded.

"Why don't you?"

He smiled and shrugged. She noticed his smile was crooked.

"Well.... it was nice... talking to you. But I have to get back now." She turned around and started walking. The dogs had stopped on a hill and watched the whole thing, but as soon as she started walking they did also. She turned around and he was still standing there. she put up a hand to wave to him. he did so also, very enthusiastically.

Christopher

A Group crowded around the bulitin board, pointing at a paper and talking excitedly. Trea steped out of the restroom, fingering her hair. She made her way to the front of the group, running her finger down the paper. She found what she was looking for and smiled. She turned on her heel and ran to the lunch room to find Ranna.

Christopher sat at the sidekick table with some of his friends. Heros and sidekicks did not sit together. Christopher was actually a hero, but all the other hero's were stuck up and full of themselves. Well, most of them. The girl who just walked in the lunch room, Treasa, she was a hero and did not seem to mind making a fool of herself. He smiled as he watched her search the room.

"And then he said, get this, 'why'd ya do that, Frank?" Henry finished his joke with a flurish of his hand, which had been changed to a fork. The people around the table laughed, except for Christopher. He was still watching Treasa, he flipped her hair behind her should,wondering how could she make a simple guesture like that seem so appealing?

"Chris? Hey, Chris what are you looking at?" Henry pushed Christopher, harder than he meant too because Christopher fell off of his chair.

Christopher felt the blood fill his cheeks. Treasa was looking at him and laughing behind her hand. Suddenly there were hands everywhere.

"Chris are you hurt?" "Oh dear, you fell!" "Let me help you up!" "Give me your hand, Chris." Each girl scrambled to help him up, and only pushing him farther down. Christopher hated his little "fanclub" they never gave him a moment's peace.

"I'm fine, thank you for your concern ladies." Christopher said as he pushed himself up and the girls away at the same time. Not only were they annoying, but when people touched him it just hurt. That was his powers fault. Super agility, senses, and strength. Which is why he always wore gloves, earplugs and a blindfold. If he did not he ended up curled up in a ball in some corner holding his head.

Christopher looked back to where Treasa had been standing, but she was gone. He panicked a little bit, but found her hugging... Ranna? She was avoided like the plauge, and Treasa was hugging her! Wow, either she had a death wish or did not care what would happen to her.

"Hey, Chris, the long you stare at her there is more of a chance that she will notice you staring at her." The table laughed, and Christopher sat down blushing again. What was it about her?

Not ScARd at all

No ground service? ah dang, I always thought it was kids pointless any way, how am I supposed to finish a drink in 15 minutes anyway? if I want to enjoy it it takes at least 20.

So I am Sitting in the McCarren airport in Las Vegas, waiting for them to call my name, telling me I can get on my flight. When I got here I was really scared, I thoguht the flight was really full, and I was going to have a hard time getting on. Well it is not going to be hard to get on at all.

Have you ever brushed your teeth, then gone to eat something and the taste of toothpaste and food just makes you sick? That is how I feel right now. i hope I will get on... MAn. I guess I am still scared I won't get on! no need to worry.

What Was Going On?

I feel like I need to write something. Ever had that feeling? Just that there is something that I need to do. Something that has to be done soon.
and if it is not, something terrible could happen.

She ran down the stiars wishing they would fall away. Her hopes were granted and she landed on a soft pillow like cloud that came from the water. Nothing made sense, things were happeneing to fast. What was she doing here? what was her name? Everything she thought of happened, even the tiny things like a spark plug turning into a bug. Wierd how could this be. He fell next to here rubbing against her arm, she shyed away, there were no boys in her thoughts, what could be going on. She needed to get to the end, how did she get there? Nothing made sense. He stood up and pointed with his eyes, glowing green. She started and drew back running into a wall made of toothpicks. She ran to the hall , rran down the stiars, never wanted to turn back. What did she think was going on? it was too hot,. she felt the sweat drip off of her, she began to drip, into a puddle, a colorful puddle, she moved t hast way, making waves and minature hurricanes. She saw a door, she opened it and a rabbit popped out, nothing to make your day like a hairless rabbit. She began to grow, now into a tree, but she could move, like the walking talking trees from books. She walked and a bird flew, then to an animal all different kinds. it did not matter which animal just lot so f thme. she walked farther down the road and then saw a munchkin. he said hello then she began to fly, nothing like this had ever happened before. what was going on? She flew ad landed in a readl cloud, she closed her eyes and bowed her head wanting nothing more than to sleep her fingers typed away not really aking sense of anything misspelling no punctuation wanting saturday to come maybe halfway would be nice. What was happeneing. she neede3d to sleep but her fingers refused to cooperatte there was something that she needed to do.s he wastoo keeyed up to sleepe but then why did it seem so easy. showering was such a paoin.

wow... now you know how my brain works... kinda.

Living The Life Of A Girl Trapped In Confusion

I don't know what to think about alot of things, What should I do when I nkow something is wrong but it is so inapropriate for me to say anything about it? The wrong thing is not hurting anyone but there are SO many ways to do it that could be right. What do I do about that?

28 Days....

I am so entirely bored. There is nothing to do!

'sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same." all at once, the fray

I finished my chores this morning. Then had nothing to do.... nothing at all.... I feel so bored. I haven't felt like this in a while.

I have not really been hanging out with my friends much. But now I want too... I want to hang out. I want to have a party! Why now? I don't know but I want too so badly!!! but man I am so bored. this week i won't be so bored, I am going to vegas! YAY for Kimmie's birthday!

I am also going out to a ranch to work and ... yes.

Being bored sucks. I already went to wal-mart and played. but I have no money.

oh yesterday I went to costco and got some pants.. they are ALOT higher than I normally wear them, but I feel better, look better, and like them better than my other pants! so I figures they are good!

I am so excited for College... 28 days till I go...

What day are you going Kane? 28 days... wierd to think about that....

28 days until my life changes forever.

28 days until I have to make all new friends

28 days until I leave home.

28 days until I move somewhere I have never lived

28 days until I live with 5 other girls

28 days until I am no longer dependant on my parents.

So weird.....

The Mists of Darkness

"You can see that this broken soul is bleeding, so you can see your feelings inside yourself and wander through my heart, letting you see through me now only consumes me, forget your pain and watch me fall apart." -Pages, 3 Doors Down

I don't know what that means, but it seems to go with how I am feeling right now.

I am so tired. I was stupid and went to see the midnight showing of Harry Potter (Which was BEAWESOME!) and so now I am tired. I took a nap before I went, a rather long nap. Then I got plently of sleep last night but...

"Everything is gonna be alright, Everythiing is gonna be all right, Everything is Gonna Be alright, be strong, Believe!" - Believe, Yellowcard.

Thank You, Heavenly Father!

The other night I was just crying, wanting everything to just be over, wanting to just sleep and wake up to find that everything was easy and how it should be. That is not what happened. That is never what happens. Problems don't just go away, there is not a "easy button." You can't live on the easy. You can only surrvive. "I don't want to surrvive. I want to Live!"- Wall-e

The other night I was so tired and just wanted to go to sleep, but I told myself that I was going to read my scriptures. So I got out the Ensign and picked the first short talk I found.

Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. By Elder Kevin W. Pearson of the Seventy.

Faith. I didn't think that I needed to read something about Faith. I needed something about how to solve problems! But I read it anyway.

"There is no other thing in which we can have absolute assurance. there is no other foundation in life that can bring the same peace, joy, and hope. In uncertain and difficult times, faith is truly a spiritual gift worthy of our utmost efforts."

What? Having Faith will give me peace, joy, and hope? We can have absolute assurance in Faith?! I thought faith was knowing something is true without actually seeing it or witnessing how it works?

"There is a quality of faith which develops as we focus all of our heart, might, mind, and strength. It is seen and felt in the eyes of

a great missionary,

A Valiant and virtuous young woman,

and righteous mothers,

father,

and grandparents.

It can be seen in the lives of individuals young and old, in every land and culture, speaking every language, in every circumstance and station in life. It is the 'eye of faith' spoken of by the prophet Alma (see Alma 5:15-26)-- the ability to focus and be steadfast, continually holding fast to true principles, nothing wavering, even when the mist of darkness confronting us is exceedingly great. This quality of faith is exceedingly powerful."

Nothing Wavering, even when the mist of darkness confronting us is exceedingly great.

The mists of Darkness are very deep and dark for me right now. Not only am I doing something I have never done in my entire life, but I am doing something FIRST.

In institute we talked about how Eve was the first. the first mother, first grandmother, the first mother to have her child kill another of her children. The first woman to have a fight with her husband, the first woman to teach her children the gosple.

Now I am not the first mother, or the first of something huge like the mother of the world, but I feel like I can somewhat understand Eve. She did not have anyone to look too, for an example, or for idea's about her calling. Now I don't have anyone to look to, to tell me how to pay for college, or how to pay for food, or how to live the rest of my life. No one to look to for idea's about how to start something so scary.

I wonder how many nights Eve sat up crying, wondering how she was going to do it? How many times did she feel discouraged, like she could not do this? or that someone else would be better at this job than she? I wonder if it was as many as I have?

Heavenly Father is amazing. Even when we are at the depths of dispare, he will still help us, if we will ask for his help. He will wrap his arms around you and hold you, enveloping you in the peacefullness of his love and comfort.

Frozen Cheese Trees

FYI Frozen cheese is cold.
Outside is hot

"Throught three cheese trees
three free flea's flew
While these flea's flew freezy breezy blew
freezy breeze made these three trees freeze
freezy trees made these tree's cheese freeze
and that's what made these three free fleas sneeze"
-Dr. Seuss, fox in Sox

Can I just say that I love that book! It may be one of my favorites EVER
I bought some Zebra gum today. you know the colorful kind that looses it's flavor really fast. I LOVE IT!
I also bought stuff for my dorm this morning. I hope Darby did not buy the same things. I am going to have to e-mail her! Darby is my roommate... well my future roommate!

Genetics

There are plenty of things to be afraid of in life, plenty of things to never want to see because they are too scary. But the one thing we need to remember is that "God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of a sound mind." Heavenly Father gives us warnings, and asks us to prepare, and sometimes we get scared, so scared that we forget that we are supposed to prepare.

I need to prepare, it feels like i don't have enough time anymore, but I do. i can do anything.

When you attack a man's manhood, it is to get him to do something that he originally did not want to do. or to make him feel so guilty that he never does it again. Now I think it is REALLY funny when my brothers try to attack MY manhood. Guess what guys? I DON'T HAVE ANY MANHOOD! hehe. Just now I told my dad something, my brother did not want me too, so he called me a snich. Do I look like I care!??!!?!? man. learn some genetics!

Life is Good

I bought an iPod yesterday. it is Yellow. But it was an amazing deal! I got the iPod, a charger, speakers, earphones, cover case, 3 gel cases, and a cleaning cloth for $150!! I was pretty excited. But I don't get it for about 2 weeks. which sucks but you know, oh well.

Courtney came home yesterday, Lynette gets married today, Courtney goes home tomorrow. I am so happy for Lynette! And Courtney is staying the night tonight, and... :D I am so happy! Today will be a good day, I can tell. And I came up with a storyline for a new story. Emmy, you were right about the staff's, we do need characters with staffs. Thank you for saying that because now I have an amazing idea!

Amazing, Addictions

There is to many things in life to waste time. Yet that is all I have been doing lately. working, sleeping, barely helping, and wasting time! I need to spend time with my friends, with my family, and not watching stupid shows that I love!

Soren's story was right, the human shows are addicting.

If I could just control myself when it comes to that I would be fine.

But I can't, I can't when I am reading too... that is why I have not taken any of your books Soren, I don't stop at all until they are done!

I hate it. I wish I could just read some then stop knowing that I will be able to finish later, becasue nothing is going to change in the next few hours. Or maybe I should just do my chores first. I did that one day and then just watched a show for the rest of the day... I still wasted my life away.

Well, no more. I am not going to waste my life. I will do chores, then when they are done find someone to hang out with. or do something productive.

speaking of productive I drew an AMAZING fire bender. She is so cool! I love her!

I made up a character to go with Avatar: the last air bender. She does not have a name yet, but she was in the fire nation army and deserted and is now living in either an earth nation town or water tribe... I have not decided which but I will soon. I will put her picture on here soon too. There are somethings that are off about her, like her shoulders... but oh well. She is still way cool!

I am going to park city today to go swimming at a reallly nice pool. I am way excited. And hopfully there will be some cute men there.... I just wish they did not see me as a 12 year old little girl who is very.... mature for her age. -_- lame.

The Dentist's Office

Well... Nothing much to talk about.

People need to update their blogs.

i love Avatar.

i know that I am going to school now. It was kind of undecided before, but now I am sure. I am going to school and am going to have a BLAST!

Kane, I hope you are reading this, I am sorry. I was deffiently avoiding you the other day.... just being stupid. sorry.

this is going to sound wierd, but I Love going to the dentist! Not because i like the feel of people's hands in my mouth or anything, but... I dont' really know why, I just do!

But one thing I do not like is when they ask you questions when their hands are in your mouth. ...

(imagination)

"So, Eaven, where are you going to school?" As she reaches into my mouth with a tool, scraping the crud from my tooth.

"Wech.... uh... i... fjdoakp;wekp;rjhiop" I end up bitting her finger 3 or 4 times.

"Really? that is cool.... what did you say?"

(cool chimie music as the sequence ends)

...

yeah... that is pretty much what it is like. how about you? tell me some story's of when you went to the dentist

Avatar: The Last Air Bender

I have discovered the use of FANS! like a Fan club.. not a fan like.... nevermind

Anyway, I had a random urge to watch Avatar: the last airbender. well it was not that random. there was a preview for the movie on Transformers, and then Soren and I watched it the other day, the preview. So I looked on You Tube.... nothing. I searched for it on fancast and hulu, only segments. Then i searched for it on google. I should have done that first! I found this fan site that has EVERY SINGLE EPISODE on it. it is AMAZING! though it has been cutting off the very end of the episode, which does not make me happy. That is a way cool show. My brothers were watching it with me and they agree... well James does not, but he also does not like Sailor Moon and he still watches it. and it is NO WHERE NEAR as cheesy as sailor moon! ha!

Post? MS yeah right

hehe funny title. You might not get it but I do and it is how I feel.

I blame Lynette for being so amazing as to the reason I was so dissagreable last day. We stayed up until 1:30 just talking.. and watching taylor swift video's. then I had to get up early for work and that did not go over well with my body... or my skin! I had to mow a feild down(on a driving mower) and there were gasshoppers EVERYWHERE!!!! They are so gross! I hate them. maybe if I get a seagull for a pet I will never have to deal with them again! :D

Courtney is coming home next week! Lynette is getting married in a week and a half! and... I have no idea when I am going to get to go to vegas next! I really need to go, possibly twice but I can't find a time!

I did find out that my piggy bank has more money than I thought in it and my movie money jar has money in it! wow!

I need to finish my drawing which is not working out to my specifications..... but oh well, I will ask kaitlen to help me, but I like topher the way he is so there!

Staying up late for me is not workng out.

I really want to stay up late every day, it seems that my best idea's come late at night when i am by myself or when i am going to bed, almost asleep. But when I stay up late I am crabby the next day no one likes me. Well that is not true but i am not very agreeable.

Hehe there was a pool party and they gave us stickers on our backs that said a character from a movie and I had Mary Jane from spiderman... and guess what towel I just happened to have? SPIDERMAN TOWEL! haha I thought it was funny

Title Of Liberty

Alma Chapter 46

11 And now it came to pass that when

Moromi, who was the chief commander

of the armies of the Nephites, had heard

of these dissenssions, he was angry with

Amalickiah.

12 And it came to pass that he rend his coat; and he took apiece thereof, and wrote upon it

-- It memory of our God, Our religion, and freedom, and our peace, our wives, and our children--

and he fastened it upon the end of a pole.

13 And he fastened on his headplate, and his breastplate, and his shields, and girded on his armor about his loins; and he took the pole which had on the end thereof his rent coat, (and he called it the title of liberty) and he bowed himself to the earth, and he prayed mightily unto his god for the blessing of liberty to rest upon his brethren so long as there should a band a Christians remain to posses the land.

--

18 And he said: Surely God shall not suffer that we who are despised because we take upon us the name of Christ, shall

be trodden down and destroyed, until we bring it upon us by our own transgression.

19 And whhen Moroni had said these words, he went forth among the people, waving the rent part of his garment in the air, that all might see the writing which he had written upon the rent part, and crying with a loude voice, saying:

20 Behold, whosoever will maintain this title upon the land, let them come forth in the strength of the Lord, and enter into a covenant that they will maintain their rights, and their religion, that the Lord God may bless them.

21 And it came to pass that when Moroni had proclaimed these words, behold, the people came running together with their armor girded about their loins, ending their garments in token, or as a covenant, that they would not forsake the Lord their God; or, in other words, if they should transgress the commandments of God, or fall into transgression, and be ashamed to take upon them the name of Christ, the Lord should rend them even as they had rent their garments.

22 Now this was the covenant whcich they made, and they cast their garments at the feet of Moroni, saying: We covenant with our God, that we shall be destroyed, even as our brethren in the land northward, if we shall fall into transgression; yeah, he may cast us at the feet of our enemies, even as we have cast our garments at thy feet to be trodden under foot, if we shall fall into transgression.

23 Moroni said unto them: Behold, we are a remnant of the seed of Jacob; yea, we are a remnant of the seed of Joseph, whose coat wa rent by his brethren into many pieces; yea, and now behold, let us remember to keep the commandments of God, or our garments shall be rent by our brethren, and we be cast into prision, or be sold, or be slain.

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What is my title of liberty. My Standard to the nations?

Love God will all your heart, might, mind and strength

Be true to God and to you

Never forget you are a Daughter of God and should be treated acordingly

Always treat others with respect and dignity

Love your neighbor

Enjoy life

Keep the commandments

One day when I find who I am looking for, I won't have to list off my standards, or think about making exceptions, because he will have the same ones.

what?

So I am not sick anymore, but ... ok well I am sick but I am feeling mch better. But my dad on the other hand. Man he is sick!

We are watching Valkyrie, so far it is pretty good.

I really want to watch Taken.

Jo is not good at watching movies... he keeps talking!

i don't really know what to write about!

coughing

:'( no one ever leaves me comments any more. Now I know how Soren feels. except... neither of us have really even had a lot of comments.

Well I am sick. My mom had the flu, not the stomach flu, and so did Jo. But Robby had alergies and so I don't think he is really sick and I think I just have a cold! Because I do not have ache's, or shakes, or chills, or a fever, or anything like that! Just a stupid runny nose and a stupid cough! yet I still can't go see anyone. though if I randomly went on a walk and someone just "happened" to go on a walk at the same time as me ... at the same place.... That is not really going to see anyone is it?

I don't know. But I think I am going to do some chores today, but not one's that involve being sparkly clean with no germs... because even if I don't have the flu I still have germs so I won't do that. I will probablly do some vacuuming and sweep and moping. sounds lovely. Maybe even some dusting. I would like that. I need to go to the store and get some lysol so I can spray down my house. Then people can come in!

How long does the common cold last? liek 2 weeks? lame... oh well at least I will be able to do things. Hey moy mom was talking about how when she coughed it hurt all the way down into her chest... It has not really done that to me at all. Just the regular satisfying cough where it feels like it is not just you trying to get something up. Do you know the one? If you are going to cough that is the best one to get, because it feels satisfying. I know I am weird for thinking that a cough could be satisfying but still... it is.

The Fantastic Four!.... only less fantastic, more Fateful

I have drawn all four of the charcters now. They look so much better when you can see all of the details, but oh well, this is the best I can do. There is Warren Peace... I think I did rather well... and again... all of them! Lovely!

Treking away from me

Soren is on Trek. It is rather maddening.

Though I have been reading Howl's moving castle. Which is amazing. don't you know?

And I have been drawing more. but onl y one more picture. I want to do a really detailed one with Warren, Topher, Trea, and Ranna. That wold be cool. Soren did one (that was AMAZING) and it was when Ranna is recovering from... dying and they all wear cool arm bands. :D they actually get the whole school to do it.

I am so excited for the story we are going to write.

I love Willy Wonka! I am watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory!

Anyway....

Go Aggies!

So I am at USU right now, but Am not having the time of my life. It is fun. but it would be more fun If I knew someone. I have met lots of people but I am not very good at keeping conversations up for more than a few topics. I think that .. I hope that I will be able to make MANY MANY friends when I come up here to actually live. Hopefully my roommates will make good friends. Though three or four of them have been living together for 3 years. MY roommate actually is getting married so she is not going to be my roommate. Maybe I will get a roommate that I can be really good friends with. oh well, who knows!

Loves! Night!

Nicknames are AMAZING! (Trea, Topher, Ranna)

This is Ranna, Topher and Trea in their uniforms as I have imagined them.... I don't know if Soren will like the way I did Ranna... but I thought she was amazing. I will have to see what Soren thinks of her. I would call her but... she may be at church. and I don't really know. So I will just call her at like 4:30 or 5.

Trea's eyes are different. I realized that this morning. But I thought oh well. both of the eyes look really good... they are just not the same!!!! haha!

Topher looks pretty amazing if I do say so myself. He also has some things wrong with him but , hey nobody's perfect!

Ranna on the other hand... is nearly perfect except for her hand. but oh well. I took the easy way out and put her hair covering her eye so I only had to draw one, and then I covered her other hand with a flame so I did not have to draw that hand. oh well. If you can cheat without hurting yourself. DO IT!

That is kind of what the personal trainer at gold's gym said. If you can cheat your body into thinking it has worked for a long time do it! That is what we did yesterday! oh man. He only worked us out for 15 minutes but man am I feeling it today! And yesterday I felt like I had been working out for 2 hours after the 15 minutes were over!

I love drawing. I don't know why I don't do it more. Ranna only took me about ... actually I drew her in sacrament meeting. :P well, I did her face at home and the coloring took a while but still. It was not as long as it normally takes me to draw a person like that.

Oh, Soren, I hope you don't mind that I made Ranna's eyes purple. I didn't know what color they really were so I just picked up a pencil. They make her uniform cooler though. cause you probably can't tell on the compy but there is purple in her uniform.

Well that was a lovely rant. Tune in next time for "The answer to mine was a secret!" Courtesy of Soren for introducing me to Mirror Mask