Empty

This is supposed to be the time of my life....
then why do I feel empty?
This is supposed to be fun...
Then why do I feel empty?
This is supposed to be amazing!
Then why do I feel empty?

i feel like I had a puzzel of my life with only a few peices missing, but then I dropped it and now the pieces are EVERYWHERE. I don't know where to start looking and some how my 500 peice puzzle has transformed itself into a 10,000 peice puzzle.
The life I had is gone away
The life I have is here to stay
Change is good
is the same better?
My day forgotten by the one I thought loved me
My heart broken, twice, by the friend I thought I had.
Change is good
is the same better?
I smile to know that God is there
He is the only one I feel that cares
Change is good
is the same better?
He sent me a friend
One who can talk, play, and write.
Change is good
is the same better?
Now I realize, my life of shatters
Is not really all that matters
Change is good
But God is better.

I feel as if everything I have know is changing and I don't know how to handle it. I think back to the blessing I had about my friends and how I will have friends without number... well that time certainly is not now. Soren, Emily, my mom, Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ... That is about it at the moment.

I hope for more friends in college. For now I am content with the few I have.