Sunday, April 5, 2009

Try to smile... please

I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought I was being strong. 
I still am... I know that some things are hard. I know that things have to change.
I also know that the things we sometimes think are impossible, are only improbable....
Change is hard. 
Change hurts.
Change is like a bag a dirt.
Totally pointless, 
just getting things dirty,
until one day
after you realize the grity
was really just there to help you
all you really need to do
is plant a seed.

I belive I can make this work out for the better.
I can make a new friend out of the one that was lost. But first I need time. Time to adjust to being lonesome. Time to adjust to being sad. I need my dear friend, who has always been with me, yet at the moment hes actions say he doesn't need me. He trys to talk, to pressure with words, yet his actions speak louder than those words. I walk by, he says hi, I try not to cry, for I see how he loves her so, and i understand so completely, because I know. But I also know he will be hurt, and then he will feel like dirt. There are ways, to just be friends, and maybe just wait a few months until high school ends. These words hurt, but they weren't meant that way. I still love him, even when I tell him I can't do this anymore. Now I am weak, not strong like I was, I need friends who can stand for what they want, even when it seems like the harder thing to do, because in reality it is, but it is also the right way to go. As our beloved leader has said "It is always the right time to walk in his way... and it is never to late." -Deiter F. Uckdorf. Actions that say "I am willing to talk, only when you give me the time of day", and "there is no way I am going to push or try to chase. " or maybe " I see you here now, yet I am doing something else." "I will write you a note, but I won't talk to your face." "I will wait for you to tell me, before I make a move." If there were a reason for me to chase you far, I would chase you to a star. But right now, I dont' have the strength, I have been hurt to may times, and nearly gone to waste. I tried for a while, to hang on by a thread, but all the wear turned me down instead. I fell from the blanket, and onto the ground. 
I have forgiven, I have always loved. But it is time for change. 
Challange + Change = Grow

Be of Good Cheer.
-God is with you
-Where'ere you go
-God is with you
-and he loves you so
Be of Good Cheer

"Turn Discouragement into Joy and Gratitude." - Barbara Thompson

"I will not leave you comfortless" 

"God never flee's or fails us." - Jeffery R. Holland

"Turn our thoughts away fromthe troubles arround us, but to our blessings." -President Monson

"Men are that they might have joy." - President Monson

"Get down on your nees and pray." -President Monson

"Fear not, be of good cheer, the future is as bright as your faith." - President Thomas S. Monson.

"Nothing except god can make one happy." - Dallin H. Oaks

1 comment:

Tonia said...

i don't know if this helps, but it's what i came up with.

changing...

i'm blue.
everything is wonderful and great.
just floating around.
hanging out.

hey, what is this?
it's something new.
something exciting!
it's bright.
it's happy.
it's yellow.
wait!
ouch!
what's happening?
i'm changing.
no longer the same.
i didn't plan on that happening.
it came over.
it mixed.

i'm different now.
what am i now?
green?
not quite.
still mostly blue.
but i'm brighter now.
more exciting.
more vigorous.
but still floating.

look!
there it is again!
it's coming this way.
oh i don't want it to come.
it hurts me!
it changes me.
makes me different from who i was before.
why?
stay away!
it's almost here.
coming closer.
oh not again!

ouch!
stop pinching!
stop stretching!
stop pulling!
go away!
yellow is so pretty.
but i don't know if i like it.
it made me pretty before.
but i hurt.
it still hurts.
no more!
yellow go away!
i've had enough!
i like being blue!

yellow wont leave.
it hurts.
i want to cry.
i am crying.
why wont it stop?
ouch!!!

it's gone.
what is left of me?
who am i?
what am i?
green?
am i green?
yes.
yes i am.
i am green.
i am new.
i am more.
i float.
i fly.
i dance.
i dare.
i am more alive.

i am me.

things will get better,trust me.